I'm just numb right now...SAD UPDATE

Good vibes coming your way.  Blackhawk needs his momma in good shape when he comes home.  Accidents just happen sometimes.  Take care and be easy on yourself.

Unfortunately, I am sad to report that we had to put Blackhawk to sleep a couple hours ago. I called the vets office and talked to them and they said he was unresponsive and they were still unable to draw blood after several hours of fluids and oxygen. Right after I told them I was on my way there, they called back and said he had suffered cardiac arrest and they got him back with cpr. They wanted to know what do do if it happened again before I got there and I told them to let him go. He hung on until I got there and left peacefully.

In a way, it is a relief. When you have an older dog, especially one with health problems you are always waiting for the other shoe to fall. My fear was I'd have to put him to sleep because his body had given out while his mind was still aware. I didn't think I'd be able to stand to see the look in his eyes as they closed. He was already unconscious when I got to him and that made it easier for me.

My husband and father-in-law are out now, digging a grave on the farm next to Blackhawk's father and mother. Whenever the tears well up, I imagine Blackhawk running across the fields with Spike and Jesse. He'd like that. Whenever we took the dogs out to run I could tell that Blackhawk was frustrated that he couldn't keep up even though he was always happy just to be out with us. He had nearly 13 good years. That was even more than either of his parents. But I miss him terribly.

OH jenhuedephl, my heart grieves with you.  []  Hang on to the good memories and know that you gave him the very best you could while he was alive.  I'm SO sorry... so very sorry.  Be strong.

I am so sorry.  I can't imagine what you must be going through.

I am so sorry for your loss. Please don't try to second guess your actions and place blame upon yourself. You gave Blackhawk a terrific life and that is all that counts. May the memories of your happy times overcome the sorrow of your loss.

Oh, Jen, I'm so sorry! 

I am so very sorry.... Words can not express what I wish to convey to you right now but please know you are in my thoughts.   RIP Blackhawk

I can't thank you all NEARLY enough for all your support and kind words. It really means SO much to me right now. Much more than I could ever express in words. I haven't figured out how to tell my kids yet. It's just too hard. I think they will understand though.

Goodbye, old buddy. I hope you are in a place where you can eat whatever your heart desires and run as fast and as far as you want.

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I'm sending hugs...I know you need them.  Bless you for doing what you could and what was necessary.  It's hard...I know.

I'm so sorry.  Blackhawk will always live in your heart.  I hope you can find peace; he had a wonderful 13 years while he was here.

My sincerest condolences on your loss.[]
 
I hope and pray that your wonderful memories of Blackhawk will get you through the difficult moments as you adjust to a house without him.
 
Best wishes,
Elizabeth 
 

Oh Jen!  I'm so very sorry.  I wish I could take your pain away but I can't.  You gave Blackhawk 13 years of a great life!  You gave him love, a warm place to lay his old body, food to fill his belly & did I mention lots of love?  You now have a very special guardian angel.
 
Run free & eat what you want, Blackhawk  [sm=angel.gif]
 
((Jen))

I'm so very, very sorry. You'll be in my thoughts.

I am so sorry for your lose. Blackhawk is gone from your side but never from your heart.
Take Care.

Oh, I'm so sorry!! Please don't blame yourself. I'm sure he was very grateful for all the love and kindness you showed him, and he led a long and fulfilling life.