Amanda - forgive me, this will be long. [

] I will bold all of my advice/suggestions in case you don't want to read it all.
You're eating habits sound EXACTLY like mine. I have made some changes, but it wasn't easy. I have been rooted in this eating pattern for a long time. I USED to be active so it was never a problem, however, I stopped exercising a few years ago and the weight piled on. I decided to lose it this year so I signed up to run a marathon later this year. When I began, I weighed 163 lbs at 5'1. I'm 25 years old.
Signing up for the marathon allowed me to meet with a nutritionist. She didn't reveal any new info or give me any insight. She basically just told me what I already knew - burn more calories than you take in. She was very nice and created a plan for me after asking me all about my eating and exercise habits.
She gave me a daily caloric intake range, advised me to log my eating and activity in a journal, and suggested I begin taking a multi-vitamin as well as a calcium supplement. She instructed me to eat no less than 5 times a day. What I liked about her was that she didn't tell me I couldn't eat things.
She really just told me to eat in moderation, stop when I'm full not stuffed, eat protein in every meal and snack, and stop eating 2 hours before I go to sleep. She didn't lecture me on how I currently eat. She gave me a helpful grocery shopping list and some recipes. She said if I just made a few small changes, I would see a difference. And I did.
I
stopped drinking regular soda, which if you knew me, was a BIG deal. I LOVE Pepsi and I cringe at the thought of diet soda, but I got used to it and can't imagine having real soda now. I found snacks that I liked and that weren't bad. I
loaded my desk and fridge/freezer at work with oatmeal, yogurt, and Lean Cuisines so that I never had an excuse to go to McDonalds. Plus, it has seriously saved me money.
I began eating breakfast, even if I wasn't hungry. I had never really ate breakfast before so this is still a struggle. In fact, I don't think I ate this morning. [8|] I don't buy junk food at the store. What I have realized though, is that it really was something other than hunger that made me eat the way I did before because even as I was eating the way she instructed me too and being satisfied and content, I found I could still eat more. I still wanted the bad stuff. Even I was super full off of a good, healthy lunch, if someone sat down a burger and fries in front of me, I would have been able to eat it. I was/am an emotional eater. I ws eating for reasons other than hunger and I know what those reasons are. After I realized this, and I just RECENTLY realized it, it was like a light went off.
Before my realization, I was semi-committed to the training. I would go through my phases. A few weeks, I'd be really into it and I would attend every practice and be working out every day, eating good. Then I would hit a wall and stop going to practice and eat like a pig. I was sabotaging my own efforts. However, once I realized that I what I was doing and why, I stopped doing it.
I'm training again and I've also joined Weight Watchers. In addition, my work has this Biggest Loser contest going on to see who can lose the most BMI in 3 months and I joined that contest. It helps me to stay on track at work. I keep a food and activity log (this is my favorite - [link
http://www.amazon.com/BodyMinder-Workout-Exercise-Journal-Fitness/dp/0963796844/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/002-4560513-4116848?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1177352443&sr=8-1]http://www.amazon.com/BodyMinder-Workout-Exercise-Journal-Fitness/dp/0963796844/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/002-4560513-4116848?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1177352443&sr=8-1[/link]) and it really helps. I get to see my progress. When I feel like not working out, I look at that damn journal and it makes me feel like not working out isn't a possibility. And I always feel SO much better when I do it and I'm done.
I have a gym membership and an apartment gym. I have a dog that loves to be outside and running or playing. I'm not handicapped. I'm not diabled. I'm not too old. [

] There is really no excuse. I don't cook and that used to be my excuse for eating bad. Plus,
I'm dating this guy who always cooks for me and takes me out so it wasn't helping. What I've done to curb that is I allow myself to eat whatever the hell I want too, all day, one day a week. That's usually Saturday.
I have also invested a lot of money in things that have aided me in my weight loss. I bought a fancy scale, a body fat analyzer that I think it cooler and more helpful than the scale ([link
http://www.amazon.com/Omron-HBF-306C-Fat-Loss-Monitor/dp/B000FYZMYK/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/002-4560513-4116848?ie=UTF8&s=hpc&qid=1177352392&sr=8-1]http://www.amazon.com/Omron-HBF-306C-Fat-Loss-Monitor/dp/B000FYZMYK/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/002-4560513-4116848?ie=UTF8&s=hpc&qid=1177352392&sr=8-1[/link]) , a heart rate monitor, a pedometer/stopwatch, good shoes, books & magazine subscriptions, etc. I consider it all money well spent.
I don't want to just lose weight. I want to be healthy. I don't want to end up like my parents, who are both overweight and deeply rooted in their habits and lifestyles. I wish they would make an effort to become healthy, but I can't make them. I can only take care of myself which is what I'm trying to do. I currently weigh 147. I had gotten down to 147 a few months ago and then went back up to 157. Then I had my light bulb moment and am back down to 147. I don't intend for it to go back up again. My light bulb moment was about 2 weeks ago so I've lost 10 lbs in two weeks. Not bad. Very good actually. [

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So now, aside from my story, here are my suggestions, in addition to the suggestions listed above that my nutritionist gave me: [

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1. Keep a food AND activity log.
2. If you like wheat bread, then eat it. This doesn't mean JUST bread, but tortillas, english muffins, bagels, etc. All of that stuff for me is wheat.
3. If you drink a lot of soda, stop drinking it or switch to diet.
4. I hate most veggies, but there are some that I like. I will add them to every dinner or lunch that I have. I suggest you do the same.
5. I eat AT LEAST one whole piece of fruit a day.
6. Eat about 5 times a day, even when you are NOT hungry.
7. Keep track of your stats (weight, bmi, measurements) so you can see where and what you're losing.
8. If you can, stop eating fast food. I have done this in the past and am doing it now (unless I want it on my one day to eat anything) and I cannot tell you how much of a difference it has made. Just drive past them. Don't look. Wave to it as you pass by.
9. Do some kind of cardio activity for a minimum of 30 minutes every single day. If you can, do more. Weight lifting is important too, but if nothing else, get the cardio in.
10. Have a support system. I have many. I have my marathon team, weight watchers and you guys. [
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11. Subscribe to at least one fitness/health/light eating type of magazine. Sounds silly, but it helps me when I go to my mail box and have a motivating magazine waiting for me in the middle of all my bills. I subscribed to more than one though. I have Self, Shape and Weight Watchers. I love magazines! I stopped my subscriptions to Elle, Vogue, and US Weekly because they are filled with nothing but super skinny girls that have done nothing but aid me in my twisted self-image and self-loathing. [:'(]
Good luck on your weight loss! I wish you all the best and if you ever need to talk, vent or whatever with, you can always pm me. Or if you find any good recipes or snacks, let me know! Spread the wealth! [

] I have a list of snacks that I love that are fast, easy and convenient that I will write down and send to you. Good luck!