tacran
Posted : 10/8/2012 12:14:39 PM
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish I had something useful to say, but others have posted very good advice and insight.
I've had a couple friends who were blessed with their dogs passing during their sleep. They were both senior dogs in poor health, so they were facing the same decision. When our beloved Tonka was in his final weeks, I prayed every day that he would drift off to sleep in a safe and familiar environment with us at home, and that would be it. Unfortunately, we had to make the decision for him, and because of the kind of symptoms and problems he was having, it was not a clear-cut decision. He loved to eat, and I kept hoping he'd refuse food as a "signal" he was done fighting, but that never happened. Instead, we had to try to determine if his breathing and swallowing problems were more than he wanted to bear.
In retrospect, all these years later, I have doubts it was the right time, but that particular evening it seemed like it was. One of my biggest regrets is that we weren't able to say goodbye to him at home. The vet had previously offered to come to the house when we decided it was time, but that night we weren't able to reach him and we were afraid to wait until morning in case Tonka's suffering turned into a crisis. The e-vet staff were kind and compassionate, but being at home would've been better for all of us. So, I guess that's one piece of advice I'd offer. Even if it's not the right time for you and Daisy right now, maybe you can line up a plan with your vet so that the arrangements are not a last-minute thing, and you'll know what options you have -- whether it's being at home, or being at the vet's office during a quiet time, not walking in through the lobby when 10 people are there, etc.
My heart goes out to you. The weeks before we lost Tonka were hands-down the hardest weeks of my life. It was all I could do to get through a work day. The exhaustion, worry, sadness, indecision and everything else wore me out physically and emotionally. I can only say that I understand what you're feeling and send you all the strong vibes possible.