glenmar
Posted : 2/1/2012 8:49:42 AM
Morning all. Heading home today but will certainly miss this awesome weather. I've been sitting on the deck with my coffee for the past hour or so, just soaking up the sunshine and mild temps. No idea what it's like at home.
All of this has really hit me hard the past two days.....stuff is done and it's I guess time to get back to the business of living. I'm trying really hard to figure out how to do that and I wonder if there is something wrong with me that I can even THINK about getting back to the business of living when Mike is no longer with us. Sitting on the deck and soaking up the sunshine?? My son, MY sunshine, is sitting in a box in a bag on the kitchen table and I'm enjoying something? Is that really wrong? I don't know how I'm supposed to feel, how I'm supposed to act, and apologies for being such a downer and such a mess. This is really, REALLY hard and darn it, I don't know how to do it.
OK, sucking it up now and returning to the Tough Old Broad mode.
Seriously tho? Hug your kids today. Hug everyone you love extra hard.