calliecritturs
Posted : 3/9/2011 12:57:56 PM
Thank you **ALL** -- and I know Davey will take comfort from this as well. We often talk about what's "harder" -- the sudden, swift "accident" or illness or something longer and drawn out where you get to say goodbye.
And you know -- I've loved and lost some incredibly special animals -- and they have ALL taught me one thing. Love hard and TELL everyone you love them. Tell them often. Because you never know ... you may turn around and they're gone. (human or companion)
Billy knew .. oh yes he did. And just before we left the house yesterday afternoon, I told him how proud I was of all he gave to Richie, and that Dr. Bailey would help ... but I did tell him how very much I loved him.
I'm glad. I don't have to live with any recriminations. No "what if" ... no "if only". It was his time. The Alpha of all Alphas may not always match my timetable, but I trust His completely. Understanding and acceptance will come. Faith sustains today.
I was being a total coward last night to be honest -- I have a lot of your phone #'s in my cell -- and I was honestly looking for someone to post so I wouldn't have to. But it was not to be, and frankly, it was better for me TO do it last night.
Billy had a fan club every where he went. He really, truly did. I've had people I didn't even know approach me and say "Is that BILLY??? What's his PCV??" or "You don't know *me* but I know BILLY! I was a tech at ..."
I actually have people I have to call today to let them know. People who will mourn this dog as if he were human. Because he brought joy and love. ALWAYS a tail nubbin furious wag. Faster than the speed of sound.
Once again -- thanks to all of you for your kindness and comfort. It really does help. David and I truly thank each one of you.