shamrockmommy
Posted : 5/24/2010 12:27:57 PM
Eh. It's a Monday.
Sorry to hear about the baby birds! :(
I had a decent weekend. DH and I got most of the rest of the house in order and the garage finally cleaned out and organized.
Spent much of the weekend looking at petfinder and craigslist for some glimmer or something of a dog that really would fit in our family. You know, I feel manic almost. And miserable. Not to get all woe is me but I think I am fighting off some post-move depression plus some my-dog-just-died depression and I have a few huge holes in my life now. Definitely feel unsettled.
DH being home is a HUGE adjustment. I didn't think it would be but here he is kindof bossing me around (why are these dishes in the sink? didja do laundry? what did you DO today? kind of questions). Before life was up to me. I took care of the house and kids on my terms, and I think, after all, I did a dang good job. NOt to say that Dh is an ogre or anything, because he absolutely is not, I just feel, I dunno... 'watched' or something. He also makes these "do you really need to eat THAT?" comments. I am aware I'm a good 60 lbs overweight, and he means well, but....
So do you think this is why I am obscessing so badly about getting another dog? Looking for love and acceptance? Looking to fill the hole that is there from missing my family that I got all reaquainted with over the last year? I keep envisioning this big fluffy dog who would sit my my side with his big head in my lap, wanting love and petting through his soft silky hair (insert BMD here). My bichon girls lay at my feet wherever I land as well.
I am just.... ugh.
I am a MESS.