My BF had a bad episode (reaction to medication that he has taken for a long time, just now his liver can't process as well) and is now on a ventilator and under sedation in CCU. One attempt to extubate him didn't go well. Some of his symptoms had subsided, which was a plus, but his heart rate and BP went dangerously high. They need the medicine to clear his system, because dialyzing him would be so dangerous. He doesn't even know I'm there when I sit with him. It's so hard to watch that handsome face that used to tell me "I love you" and kiss me goodnight every night be so dangerously quiet. The last thing he said while he was still conscious was my name... I so want him to come out of this. It sucks having to work through this, too - I'm scared to take days off because I don't know how many I will need later. When this is all over, I want to ask my legislator to amend the family leave act to include designated primary caregivers who aren't family.