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Posted : 6/14/2007 9:04:08 PM

I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I can't even imagine... You did the very best you could for Madison, and I think she knows how much she was loved.
We'll be thinking of you and sending warm fuzzies from down under.

Ratsicles

Posted : 6/15/2007 7:04:48 AM

Thank you all so, SO much. It's been really rough...right after DH got home, we immediately had to leave for Columbus- we're closing on our house today, and moving this weekend, so we haven't even had a spare second to grieve.

I haven't asked DH about how it went yet. I don't think I'm ready to hear the details. He hasn't offered anything, and even though he didn't know Madison for very long, I can tell he's pretty broken up about it too.

Again, thanks again, so much, for all of the support and advice. It means alot. To everyone who has PMed me, I'll be getting to those shortly.

chewbecca

Posted : 6/15/2007 7:15:25 AM

This post made me cry too. I'm so sorry!
but I know you've done the best you can and you need to know that!

I really am sorry, and like the others have said, try not to beat yourself up over this.

dyan

Posted : 6/15/2007 7:16:03 AM

I'm glad you are so busy that you don't have time to think for while. It kind of helps to not have time to dwell on things...but it doesn't take the hurt away for a moment.
When I had to put my beloved Cindy down years ago...I couldn't talk to anyone the next day at work, I walked in and they immediately saw what I looked like from crying all night...and asked what was wrong. I somehow got out of my mouth that I had to put Cindy down last night and I can't talk about it and they left me alone. I could not talk about it...I kept reliving the whole thing in my head, over and over and over. I bet that is what your DH is doing also...and he will talk about it when he is ready.
Madison is running happy now....that you can be sure of! Peace to you and your DH!

Jenn

Posted : 6/15/2007 7:32:51 AM

Hi Brittany, I'm very new here but I just wanted to say you have gone far and beyond for Madison. You gave her everything you could and unfortunately despite your best efforts sometimes things just don't work out. From everything I've read you are a WONDERFUL mommy to all your critters. I've never had to personally deal with a situation like yours so I can only imagine how horrible it is for you. Please don't beat yourself up over this. I'm sending good vibes your way.

J M

Posted : 6/15/2007 9:12:55 AM

This is the saddest thing ever. I don't understand this at all. Why do the most vulnerable have to suffer like this? Poor Madison, I hope she is in peace.

I am sorry that you and your family has to go through this.

tiffy

Posted : 6/15/2007 9:34:17 AM

Brittany, all I can say is that you gave it your all and its people like you that make this world bearable. Thank you.

espencer

Posted : 6/15/2007 10:08:22 AM

ORIGINAL: JM

This is the saddest thing ever. I don't understand this at all.

I do understand it completely and yes, is the saddest thing ever

jenhuedepohl

Posted : 6/15/2007 10:19:20 AM

Oh Brittany! I'm so heartbroken for you! You guys did the right thing, though. I'm sure that doesn't help the pain and sorrow you are feeling, but your giref will only subside with time. Remember Madison and honor her by helping other dogs so they don't have to go through what she did.

janet_rose

Posted : 6/15/2007 12:13:00 PM

This is honestly the worst thing I have ever experienced. I have never had to euthanize a dog before, not even for an illness...much less something like this.

Brittany, I am in tears and my heart breaks for you. You did not fail!! You gave Madison peace the only way you could - just not the way you wanted.

You did all you could for Madison and put up with a lot more behavior than most (just about all) people would. You took on a very difficult task when you knew in your heart that she might be beyond help.

You gave Madison love and care and a chance to heal, but she had to do the rest. Her mind was just too badly damaged and/or diseased for that to happen. She was in constant emotional pain and she is now at peace.

Be gentle with yourself. Madison now understands your love and is happily waiting for you at the Bridge.

This is a top rated book that may help you cope with your grief:
Sife, Wallace, The Loss of a Pet, 3rd edition, 11/2005
http://tinyurl.com/yt34zt

I am sorry that I didn't see this thread earlier. I was out of town for several days and I still haven't caught up.

Ruth

Posted : 6/15/2007 1:08:52 PM

I'm so sorry you have been going through this.

Please don't blame yourself. It sounds like she came to you very damaged, and there was nothing you could do to fix that. Thanks to you her, last months were lived as an inside dog with good food in her tummy, proper medical care, and a loving family. You took her in and gave her those things when nobody else would. She knew it, too. That is what's important.

Run free Madison.

It looks like we'll have to do something about Madison...