chewbecca
Posted : 3/25/2007 10:20:55 AM
ORIGINAL: Elizabeth209
I had 2 A.P.B.T, Zeus and Athena, they were raised together, and adored each other.
I never ,ever raised Zeus to be aggressive against ANY animal, but as he got older he got aggressive. Its bred into them, they are fighters, always, always watch them closely, mine never fought against eachother, but they were terrors when it came to other animals. They were beautiful animals, and I adored them, but I had to put them down, say what you will, but I couldnt keep them kenneled all their lives.
And I would never own another.
I'm really sorry, Elizabeth.
I know Ella has DA issues and bad ones. It's not easy to own her. Not easy AT ALL. She is my only fur baby and will remain my only fur baby for the rest of her life. It sure does bum me at times. But I am going to work with her because, see, I could allow this to keep me in my house FOREVER. Am I scared to walk her? Oh god, you BET. I dread, dread, DREAD coming across another dog on our walks, but this is where I have forced myself to come to grips with it and say to myself, "you know, she's a dog. A DOG. I am a human. I control HER. We're going to make this work because I am in control. This IS workable. And I'm not going to allow a dog, regardless of how much I love her, criple my life. We are going to go on walks and eventually when she sees other dogs, she'll learn to ignore them with my help." I've realized that, if all precautions are taken (she's leashed), exposure cannot be stopped. It's not going to better her. I cannot keep her in my house all the time because I'm afraid of how SHE'LL react. But this is only part of it. I have to take her to training, I have to make sure I am as prepared for bad situations to pop up as much as possible. I do not deny her strength or treat it lightly. I have to be more aware of our surroundings than she does. I have to, like JM said, be a better scanner than she is. And THAT, that is HARD.
I'm going to get sentimental here and cheesy, but...with all that bad comes the better good.
When I come home and she is wagging that tail at me and looks up at me with those HUGE doe eyes and she runs and gets her ball and has it hanging out partially on one side, she makes me smile. When she pounces on her ball when I throw it, when she bully stomps around the house all happily, I am thrilled. One look at those goofy, HUGE bat-like ears that bend forward so cutely, I melt. When she's sitting, waiting for her food and drooling, I realize how much she needs me. Those few, rare times that she gives me face licks while wagging her tail, I realize, after a difficult day, how much I need her.
I may say that stuff about her being just a dog when I need to reassure myself or remind myself that her issues are workable, but honestly, she's a part of my family. Every single night when we ALL go downstairs to put the boys to bed and she HAS TO be right there with us, wagging her tail and just involved, I realize she's like one of my children.
Holy crap, was that all cheesy or what??? hahaha. I'm sorry, but when I think about it, I've had to work so much with her and I get down on myself some days for it, and on others I see the improvement we've made.
And now, now I'm SOOO off topic, so I'll quit going on. haha.