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My little wonder dog Nikki passed away today.

Posted : 2/6/2007 8:53:18 PM

Nikki's body finally gave out. I held her close to me as her vet addministered the go to sleep forever liquid in her vains.

I sit here blubbering like a baby because I hated to make that decision for her. I know it was the right one, but it still hurts deeply.

Nikki has earned her silver wings now. Her job here on earth is done. She left her paw prints etched into my heart and soul forever. I returned her to her creator.

Soar on high little one. Be blessed, and come see me sometime. Until then my sweet "warf" run free as a young pup at the Rainbow bridge with all your friends there. Six Pack will be there to greet you as will Ziggy your play buddy too. God speed little one. I have learned well from you, now you have taken a piece of my heart with you.

Love always,

Mom

glenmar

Posted : 2/6/2007 8:58:35 PM

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

Run free little one.

jessies_mom

Posted : 2/6/2007 9:00:34 PM

I'm so very sorry Angel; It's hard for me to know what to say at times like this, but I hope you can take some comfort in your memories of her and the knowledge that she's whole again and playing with her friends at the Bridge. I know you miss her terribly, so sorry; sending you some <<HUGS>>

Run free Nikki [sm=angel.gif]

Laurelin_429

Posted : 2/6/2007 9:02:14 PM

I'm so sorry.

rest in peace, Nikki.

forpaws

Posted : 2/6/2007 9:11:11 PM

It has been a battle for some time. She made it to her ripe old age of 21. Her body just couldn't take it any more, even though I know her spirit was willing to stay.

I hope she knows I did my best for her, because the other option was to place her on antibiotic's, removal of her eyes. and at her age, I didn't think she would stand the surgery, because she was also a diabetic. |I just didn't want her to suffer for my sake to buy some time together which could have been a week to a couple of months.

At least now I know she is whole again. Even though I am a mess right now, but I know in time things will get better. Right???

Think I'll have another shot of coconut rum! I have to numb the pain because I know tonight will be a long one with out her, next to me snoozing away. Or her snuggled so close next to my body I can hear her faint breath in my armpits.

i_type

Posted : 2/6/2007 9:18:55 PM

I am SO sorry for you...I lost my little Lhasa, Muffy, about a month ago and still grieve for her..she would sleep on my bed every night and now there is nothing...how long does it take for the hurt to go away? I am starting to cry right now thinking of Muffy and you and how you must be hurting now...we are a very special club...those who have loved animals and lost and only we can understand each other's pain. I put her picture on my mirror and talk to her every day...crazy? Maybe, but it does help...many hugs to you...
Sherry

ChancesMama

Posted : 2/6/2007 9:23:18 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how you feel. [

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miranadobe

Posted : 2/6/2007 11:51:45 PM

Angel - you did the best for her, every step of the way from when you took her in and kept those other folks from trying to take her back, all the way thru today. Honestly, don't hold onto the painful thoughts of making the decision today. Hold onto the happy memories, the beautiful moments, impress them into your mind like they're making permanent marks, and tell stories of her here if you want. That way she will live on with even more people. Thinking of you and Nikki tonight.
Big hugs!
Paige and Gracie

Debbie R

Posted : 2/7/2007 5:55:07 AM

Angel I'm so sorry honey.
You gave your girl a great life.

forpaws

Posted : 2/7/2007 8:24:54 AM

I know what you mean Sherry, I also have a picture of her on my computer desk and talk to her as if she were right here with me.

Last night and many nights to come are very difficult to me. She slept with me always. Snuggled under the covers like a human baby. She always had to have some part of her body pushed up against me. I miss that little weight against my body at night.

I fell asleep last night clutching her blanket close to my face so I could remember what her fur smelled like to me. She never had a doggy odor about her. She always smelled so good. I loved to rub my face into her fur, cause it always smelled so good, and so soft.

The pain never really goes away Sherry, it just gets easier to deal with as time goes on. You always will miss them. You will always love them until the day you meet again. Our fur companions always leave their little imprints of paws prints in your heart, and always take a piece of it when they return to their creator.

I know I gave her the best 11 years of her life. She did the same for me. I am second guessing my decision yesterday, even though I know in my head, it was a sound decision to make. But my heart says..... What if...
Should I have put her through a surgery only for her to go thru so much pain in healing, and only for her to have died on the table? It would have been only for my sake, and not the best interest for Nikki. She deserves better.

It is a pitty our fur companions cannot live as long as we do.

My pain, grief, and missery is my own, this I know, as it is part of the healing process. It just is not one of my favorite things to do is to say good bye to a faithful, loving, funny, sweet little dog as Nikki was on earth. I know now she is not blind, not deaf, not ill, and doing her silly things she once did when she was younger and is with her bonded fur buddy Ziggy once again, awaiting for my arrival one day.

But it still hurts like H-E-double hocky sticks to not be able to pick her up and smooch her cute little nose, face and pads. I loved the smell of her feet. Her soft fur. And I will miss my paging, "warf" when she was looking for me.

I just plain miss my little princess dearly.

tashakota

Posted : 2/7/2007 8:40:58 AM

Oh I'm so sorry. Run free Nikki![sm=angel.gif]

sharismom

Posted : 2/7/2007 8:55:12 AM

Angel, I am so very sorry for your loss. You gave her your heart and soul - she knows that. I picture her riding in her pouch with you on your bike, ears flapping in the breeze, as you described to us not long ago and even though I don't know you, I could see how happy you both were. You will get to do that again with her some day.

Run free, Nikki. [sm=angel.gif]

lisa baker

Posted : 2/7/2007 9:03:02 AM

I posted in another thread but sending healing thoughts and lots of hugs from South Dakota

forpaws

Posted : 2/7/2007 10:40:40 AM

Tina, you made me smile thinking of Nikki in her pouch with goggles on and ears flapping in the wind. She loved her rides.

Her vet, took her decorative choker which I made with beads and jade stones off of her and wraped it around my wrist to make a bracelet out of. I make the chocker chaines so they don't ever choke, this way it is more of a necklace. All of my babies have one each I made for them.

I posted in two threads because not everyone goes to the Rainbow Bridge thread and wanted all to know who knew Nikki that she had passed on.

I thank all of you for your prayers and kind words. It helps greatly. I know she is happy again and with all of our departed fur kids at the Rainbow bridge.

I will have her ashes back in a couple of days, and she can sit next to Six Pack where I can hold her once again. Even tho it is not the same as holding her warm soft body against mine. And I know all the tears in the world wont bring her back to me.
I knew the day would come, but it is just as hard having to say good bye to such a sweet soul as her.

nymaureen

Posted : 2/7/2007 8:01:38 PM

I am so sorry. You know that you did the right thing. I know that decision is an awful hard one to make, but I also know that it is the kindest decision we can make.
Run free Nikki.