griffinej5
Posted : 1/9/2007 8:43:31 PM
Thanks everyone. It just sucks. Even though I know it's what was better for her, it still feels bad.
I didn't want to say it before because even though I knew it's what we were doing, I didn't want to believe it really. On the way to the vet I kept saying maybe we won't, maybe we're wrong about it, but that didn't change it. We knew shortly after we got her that she was really older than what we had been told, and we had discussed what our criteria would be for making the decision, and the things we had decided were happening.
I couldn't stay in there with her, my mom did though. I went back in to see the vet with her before it, but I just had to leave then. When we get her back we're going to put her out front by the tree where the squirrels liked to torment the hell out of her because she could never catch them.
We're going to get another dog as soon as we can get it. My dad who used to say we'd never have a dog insisted we needed another dog, not that we cared what he thought anyway. Millie really was a daddy's girl. Max is really my boy. He sleeps in my bed at night and I pretty much do all the caring for him, so I guess it's like everyone else is without a dog almost. Millie slept in my parents' bed, and I know it'll be a little bit cold there tonight. Max broke off his leash the other day when a runner went by us(and I now made him a leash with two clips), but he came right to Millie when my mom brought her out. He would have came to the neighbor's dog, if the guy had stopped yelling at him, but the guy wouldn't leave him alone. I don't know how long it would have taken to get him back without Millie, and I of course never want to know that. When we first got him, she really used to keep him in line, but she wasn't really doing that any more. She was letting Max steal her food ball toy and eat half of her food.
I've been cleaning the house for the past week,I started in the kitchen because I was bored, but I continued to the basement, which now looks like there's an episode of the show clean sweep going on. I think I continued cleaning a little out of boredom, a little to avoid thinking about it, and a little too because I knew we might need room for another crate. Millie never had a crate because she was older, and sorta housebroken, except she pooped on the floor if she decided she didn't want to outside,and more recently she had peed on the floor a few times. I've gotta go take some of the junk to the dumpster where my mom works, but then, I think Max has himself parked by the fireplace for the night, and I might do that too.