Our baby is at peace...

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    Our baby is at peace...

    On Tuesday our little baby boy went to be with the Lord, whole, at peace and never endured the hardship of humanity. We praise God for this, that he never knew the hurts of this world and that someday we will join him and rejoice at seeing him. It was kind of a dramatic story. We were up in NH vacationing at DH's grandmother's house. My water broke Monday afternoon and we luckily were able to leave Meri and Scout with my inlaws. We hopped in the car and called my OB. She wanted us to try and make it to Boston. It was a very nervewracking ride as amniotic fluid and blood kept coming out the whole 2.5 hour drive. We got to the hospital and they had us go to the ER because labor and delivery was full. I thank God for that because I think it would ahve been hard to be put amongst women laboring normally and expecting precious little bundles to love and care for at the end. We were admitted right away(probably because I looked pretty much a very big mess). After a few hours they took us to get an ultrasound and while they were looking they could see that our little boy was still going pretty strong and clinging to life admirably. It was actually harder to see that than had he passed. My placenta was not looking good and was the obvious cause of all the bleeding. My OB happened to be on call and she happened to have all her patients resolve so she got over to me in the ER. She said my placenta was pretty much a mess and that my cervix was open and that baby was coming. And if my water had broken I was at a very high risk of infection. She recommended a D&E for my safety considering how much I was bleeding. Delivering naturally at this stage could have taken up to 3 days. It wasn't how I imagined this would play out, but I felt at peace making the decision to have it done. It was a good thing because my OB said that once she got inside things were really really bad. The procedure and recovery have not been too bad. Its all the emotional stuff that is so hard and the hormones are really crazy. But we are managing ok and praising God for putting everyone in place and making the situation as bearable as possible. We have a lot of healing to get through, but I know we will make it and come out the other side of this very much stronger and better for it. As sad as this all is I do not wish any of it happened any differently. I know there was a purpose in all of this and I couldn't be who I am right now if I hadn't endured this hardship. I know in the end I will be happier and more grateful because of it. And for that I praise God.
    Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes. You cannot know how much it has meant to me and already helped me through so much of this. Keep praying!

    Emily

     

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    (((hugs))) God speed baby and peaceful wishes for all involved.

    It's always hard to find words in situations like these; I'm glad to hear things went as well as could be expected and that your Dr. was able to be there vs. a stranger at a time that had to be oh so tough.  It sounds like you have a great support network.

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    I have had you in my heart all week when I saw this.  I am praying for you and your family during this time and hope that as time passes, it will also heal your heart.  You are so very brave.  Keep your faith.

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     Through my tears, I am sending you and yours some healing hugs.  May God bless and be with you...

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    Emily, you and your family have our hugs, our prayers and our thoughts as you go through this.  God Bless all of you.

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    Emily, you & your family have our good thoughts, & prayers during this time.

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    Peace be with you and your family.  I am so sorry to hear of this.  God bless you and stay strong as you are.  Rest in peace baby boy.

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     Emily, I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're healing well. I will continue to pray for you.

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     I'm sorry Emily.  God be with you and your family in this time of need.  (((Hugs and best wishes)))

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    Emily, I'm so sad to read this.  We will keep you in our thoughts. 

     

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    Emily, my heart is breaking for you.  We'll keep you and your family in our prayers.

    Joyce

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    (((((HUGS)))) Emily. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers daily.

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     Wishing you the best. I'm thinking of you always. God speed little baby. You will get through this, as you know I speak from experience.

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    Emily,

    Thank you for allowing us all to share this with you, to offer what we can....you trust us all and I am humbled by that. This forum is many things but situations like this prove to me once and for all that the people here, are GOOD and caring people who love and worry and grieve together.

    ((hugs))

    Thank you once again and please accept my heartfelt condolences for yourself, and your wonderful family.

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    RIP, little one.  There is a special place in Heaven for you.