Chuffy
Posted : 5/13/2009 12:45:16 PM
I have a SUPER early memory - I have no idea how old I was or if it was before mum left or not.... I remember being in our lounge with soft music playing and my sister cuddling me and swaying gently back and forth. Then I heard the front door and Dads voice and knew he had just come home from work. I heard my sister say "Hold her like this, she really likes it" so my dad tried it and I remember crying and he said "I thought you said she liked it?" and my sis said (sounding unsure) "Well she liked it a minute ago".
I knew that they both thought I'd liked the music and the way I was being held, but what I was really enjoying was the smell of my sisters perfume and the feel of her jumper which was a very soft and slightly fluffy material. It was either lilac or pink I think. But when dad tried it, he took his shirt off (because it was covered in stuff from work) and being held by a man who smelled of oil and sweat and wasn't wearing a shirt was very different and not near as nice!
I remember I loved dad loads even then and I normally liked him holding me. But i didn't have the words to explain it to them and I remember feeling disappointed because my sister didn't pick me up and carry on holding me like that. I have told my sister about this memory and she doesn't remember it. No one has ever told me about it. It's something I remember, quite vividly in some ways - the smell and feel of the jumper and the sound of voices and how I felt, but I'm less sure of exact words or colours or what people were wearing.