janetmichel3009
Posted : 3/14/2009 8:45:19 AM
i have been getting into a bigger and bigger rut over the last few weeks. downright depressed.
i had a fight (a bad one) with my dad and i really dont wanna talk to him. problem is, my insurance runs through him and he needs to give me the money to do the surgery (it's complicated with this insurance...). so i have been putting that off. my doc will give me a lecture about it any time soon, but since this breast lump really isnt a big deal at this point, i am just gonna not deal with it for a while...
on top of it all, i am going extremely broke. i have a little bit left in savings, but i really really dont wanna touch that, since i might need it for bills or emergencies... so i am living EXTREMELY cheap right now. yesterday i got me dinner for about 1 USD. today bf took me out to lunch, then went with me to a cafe and was nice enough to pay the bill for me, before he left me there to do some work. so all i spent today was less that 50 cent on the subway right back home. and now i am having left overs... it's working so far. monday i am going to call this company in shanghai. they owe me quite a chunk of money from a job i started back in november. they need to pay me NOW. ergh...
good news is, i applied to like 9 different companies yesterday and today and i have some freelance work for the next couple of days at least, and this company is quite nice, so i can expect some money to come in maybe end of next week... for now i'm not stressing too much. i have no big expenses and i have the BF, my mom, and even my former boss wanting to lend me money, so if it comes down to it, i can definately survive. plus my rent is paid for the next 3 months... bummer though, there was one of my favorite DJs (from the UK, i think) playing yesterday. too broke to go out. i'm afraid to call my friends and find out that it was awesome... :(
oh well.. at least i am being productive, out of my rutt, working and applying for full time jobs... life isnt all that bad...
ps: i bet noone is reading all this babbling.. haha