Mindless Chatter - Moanday

I am tired today.  Which I guess is odd, because I went to bed early last night.  I have to bring my car in to VW to get the trim thing replaced.  ah frustrating.  BUT!  good thing today is, today is our office lunch day!  The whole office, all uhm, 5 of us lol (maybe 4) will be going to east side mario's for lunch today.  Yum.  Oh the other hand, my tea today SUCKS so i think i might find something else to drink.  I don't feel like working today.  BLEH.

MOAN day is right.  *sigh*  We're still having work done outside of the house, and they painted the back patio area and my laundry building so we couldn't go out the back door til Sunday noon (so walking four dogs every time they gotta whiz?  and ME not very ambulatory?  David re-arranged his whole schedule so HE could do it which was awesome.  BUT that also means no laundry or anything at all til AFTER I got home from doing the chi-transport thing with Erica yesterday.  So got home at 5:00 then had to do all the laundry (DAvid helped big time) and make the week's dog food.  And ... my bad ... I ran amok on my quantities because I went to a Spanish produce stand rather than the grocery store so I made myself even MORE work.  *sigh*

I want to go home already & I've only been here an hour & a half!  My voice mailbox is full, & my work email account is overloaded, yet I am playing on idog instead of getting busy.  Go figure....

I am going to take Jinxx out for a ride this evening if the weather holds out.  I think that I'll take the dogs, so that they can run alongside.  DH works late on Mondays, so if I exercise the dogs, & Jinxx together then I don't have to do as much with the dogs when I get home.

I am really tired and COMPLETELY un motivated today. Why do Monday's always come?

I had  a busy but great weekend. I spent most of it with Pete (my horse). We had lessons and jumped and had a ball! I do have a really nice horse. I even forget myself from time to time. Or perhaps I take him for granted. He also got a scubbing bubbles (bath) he was so shiny. That won't last as much as he likes to roll. 

We worked with Teddi on "staying in the yard", she was VERY good. We cleaned out our cars and allowed all the dogs to be loose in the front yard. Teddi had a leash on her but was just dragging it around. She did not wander off once! Yesterday I opened the back gate, told her to stay while I went back and forth through the gate putting the weaves away, she stayed the entire time, even when I was out of sight for a few minutes. She is growing up! 

Replaced our TV and video camera this weekend. DH is so happy to have "his" TV back. We bought on interest free financing and plan to pay it off as soon as the check comes from the insurance company, but still knowing how much was charged  

 My house is a disaster! So today I'm spending the day cleaning. Wednesday I have to go and print out some resumes. I have got to start working soon! I'm dreaming about my puppy again last night.. Although in my dream I named him Kitsune's Magic v (whatever) Lol. Call name Shippo. *sigh*

I have to do some more with the bedroom. Slowly the room is getting put together it's just a matter of motivating Alex to move the heavy stuff. Lol.

I've got a list of things I have to do before I can start saving for the pup. I need to pay off my insurance, get my license back and buy a car. As soon as those are done, then I can start saving! I just need the job first! GAH! 

Moanday is certainly the right word for it.  Please indulge a little self pity if you please.

1. Got a migraine (about level 7 on 1-10 scale) that's been here for about 10 days.  Trying to hang on til the daily meds kick in, starting to affect my eyesight and balance, not good signs.

2. Having problems with my 17 y.o. daughter.  No details, just trouble, not fun.

3. Job search not going well, caught in the bind of too much education, not enough experience, fearing I'll be volunteering forever or have to give up on my dream job and settle for something else, which I don't want to do.

4.  Depression revisiting, hanging in there 'til those meds kick in. 

Basically, my fingernails are sore because that's all I'm holding on by at this point.  The only thing going right in my life is that my weight is down and I'm controlling what I eat.  Everything else is a crap shoot.  This too shall pass............. 

Somebody pass the cheese to go with my whine! 

 I'm staying home this morning.  I don't have a babysitter for Kali and taking her with would just make more work down there.  I hope they can handle the lunch rush without me.  It should be pretty much over now, maybe I'll call and see how they did. 

My house is like a war zone.  Honestly, I had to quickly move the electric frying pan off the stove today and couldn't find a clean place on the counter so it went on the floor.  How sad is that?  LOL, and here I sit, on iDog.

 Well add me on to the "house is a war zone" bandwagon! I usually get it good and cleaned on the weekends but the last couple of weekends have been too busy. Seriously, between Abbie dragging sticks in and chewing them up on the carpet, shredding toilet paper, tissues, sales adds, etc, Dakota pooping bird seed on the floor, all 4 dogs dragging mud in the house and me ripping the house apart looking for keys and something to wear - the house is just a wreck. I HAVE to get it cleaned up! And I still can't find my house keys.

That brings me to a question. I'm going to rip up my carpet. There are hard wood floors underneath. I don't care what they look like. I'm going to put some WASHABLE throw rugs down. Does anyone know where I'd find good washable throw rugs?

  BCMixes - I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time. I sympathize (hope I spelled that right) with your migraine pain. There's nothing worse. How are you even functioning? *Sending you calming and quiet vibes*

Moan day is sooo very appropriate.  I'm coming down with a cold.  Our clients are screaming at me (work for a small financially failing company - so this is pretty much standard).  I have two emails in my inbox that I simply, at this point, do not know how to respond to (I have no answers for them, and my ability to skirt around the truth is exhausted).   

Ari is still play biting, what we've been doing isn't working - but nothing seems to.  Everything is fun and games to her and I'm honestly quite frustrated with her and doing EVERYTHING in my power to not show this frustration or take it out on her.  But I have a nasty bruise on my upper arm, one on my side on my rib cage (this one really hurts) and one on my butt.  I do what I can to manage the situation, give her enough physical and mental excercise but she still sees us more as littermates.  We'll be upping the stakes for her at home and making it more NILF strict now that she does have several commands solidly under her.  I still love the little bugger - but it's so frustrating to STILL be dealing with this.

I did have a productive weekend at least.  I cleaned up the kitchen and made lasagna, homemade sauce, chili and cookies.  I felt like cooking - so I did.  Now we'll have frozen meals for awhile to help cut out eating out costs (we both pull long hours and come home tired and just wanting to eat not necessarily cook a whole meal).  Tonight I'm making a roasted chicken and will use the leftovers for some chicken soup.  I also despertly need to do laundry - I had to scrounge around for clean work clothes this morning gah! 

Right now I just want to scoot out of here early, but it's not possible.  If I feel like this tomorrow I'm just going to call out.  My throat is raw and scratchy, my ears keep popping, I sound horrible, and feel useless.  I know it's stress - I don't get sick unless I'm stressed.  I've been chronically stressed since being at this job.  Last year I had the flu - twice.  The second time was really bad, so bad that I couldn't walk due to extreme dizziness and fatigue.  I'm really trying to prevent that this flu season.

Jewlieee

  I don't care what they look like. I'm going to put some WASHABLE throw rugs down. Does anyone know where I'd find good washable throw rugs? 

Try IKEA ... if t here isn't one reasonably close to you, try them on-line.

Joyce

Jewlieee

  BCMixes - I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time. I sympathize (hope I spelled that right) with your migraine pain. There's nothing worse. How are you even functioning? *Sending you calming and quiet vibes*

Thanks so much.  I think over the years I've developed a coping mechanism to pain because I've had so much of it.  I sort of dissociate.  I mentally put myself outside my body and I sort of conceptualize the pain, like "Wow, my head feels like it's going to explode, gotta do something about that."  It works sometimes.  Other times, not so much.  When these start to mess with my vision, that's when it gets scary.  I've had a zillion MRIs so I know it's not a tumor or anything (LOL, I just heard Arnold in Kindergarten Cop "It's not a tumor!";) but it sure is annoying!  I've got sexual assault response training that I just can not miss, so tonight will be a challenge, not disconnecting from the pain so well today.

BTW, do you have a Big Lots?  I've found good throw rugs there.  I'm thinking about ripping out my carpets at some point.  I only have plywood under mine, but I'm considering using exterior deck paint on them to just cover them some for the dogs.  The carpet is just a complete mess at this point, it's so old and ratty.   

 I like Mondays - but only cause I always have them off.

Today I'm being an utter bum after moving stuff after work Fri/Sat and all day yesterday.  Things are starting to settle out thankfully - about half the house is all set up and the other half I just need to finish putting stuff away.  

I'm loving the weather - 80s and sunny - hung out on the back deck, played our first game of fetch in the new yard, set up my storage box for my agility stuff in the yard, watched DH wash the cars; overall a nice relaxed day.

I think I'll go walk the dogs at the school across the street now that the kids are gone home. :)

(I DON'T want to go back to work tomorrow. :P)

I'm mighty irritable and want to slap anyone that isn't a client today.  Apparently, I am not alone in that sentiment.

Ex came over last night to move "the rest of his stuff" - still has plenty left and will be making more trips throughout the week.  But then asked if there's any way I could move out sooner.  Um... I told him the house wouldn't be available until Oct 1st...I have hardly any stuff out here - fits in a 5'x5' square!  Wanted me to move it to the center of the living room.  Whatever, he's stressed out, but that was a jerky thing to say to me.  He is a candidate for a good slap. (wink!)