May I Go Now

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    May I Go Now

    The following poem wwas taken from the autoimmune hemolytic anemia forum I belong to.  Every single one of us there has either lost a dog to this disease, has a dog fighting for life inute to minute, or ucky ones with a dog in remission.  Some whoe dogs have been totaqlly ravaged by this diease and  the arenal  of drugs it take to try to bring it under contrtol have had to make this decision. It is so hard to do--0I hve had to do it twicde--but I think this poem says it all to anyone faced with the decision.

     May I go now?
    Do you think the time is right?
    May I say goodbye to pain filled days
    and endless lonely nights?
    I've lived my life and done my best,
    an example tried to be.
    So can I take that step beyond
    and set my spirit free?
    I didn't want to go at first,
    I fought with all my might.
    But something seems to draw me now
    to a warm and loving light.
    I want to go. I really do.
    It's difficult to stay.
    But I will try as best I can
    to live just one more day.
    To give you time to care for me
    and share your love and fears.
    I know you're sad and afraid,
    because I see your tears.
    I'll not be far, I promise that,
    and hope you'll always know
    that my spirit will be close to you
    wherever you may go.
    Thank you so much for loving me.
    You know I love you, too.
    That's why it's hard to say goodbye
    and end this life with you.
    So hold me now just one more time
    and let me hear you say,
    because you care so much for me,
    You'll let me go today.

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    It's appropriate for anyone who has had a terminally ill dog.  It's NEVER easy.  And knowing when to whisper to them "go ahead Babe - if you *need* to go then GO.  I love you, I'll miss you, I will never ever in a zillion years forget you ... but if it's time, then go my sweet friend, and take a big you-sized part of my heart with you".

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    Even after 8 months I can't stand the loss of my best friend. Peoms like this help but my heart still breaks that I didn't have more time...13 years was too short

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     Eight months isn't very long, don't dis yourself! It's taking me years to be able to handle Stevie's death... HUGS

    On my moosedog list we have a Remembrance Ceremony email that goes out, sending "moosedogmagic" to everyone and every-dog who needs it. The requests are sent in by the list members and I have to read and sort all the sad stories and add a new poem every week. It's been three years since he left us... I can say that doing the RC has helped some, but if anything, it's been to compartmentalize more than anything else. It does hurt a little bit less...

    Getting Ole dog helped a lot. He's not Stevie, not at all. But he fills in a little of the gap.

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    Thanks Jeano

    Everyday without Willie was not a day I wanted to see. It is still hard for me but I had him tattooed on my leg and since then I see *him* everyday it has been easier. I had a portrait done that is a "rendition" of him but truely not him..the tattoo has really helped but I miss her terribly