Well, some of you may remember me asking for good thoughts last year when DH got wrapped up in some legal trouble as a result of some seriously poor choices on his part. He was caught chatting very inappropriately with what he thought was a 14 year old girl online. Turned out, it was an investigator with a local police department. It was then that I realized that he had a serious problem. I was not even aware that he had been chatting online, let alone to the hundreds of women he had been talking to since we got married. To say that I was crushed is a huge understatement. But I stayed with him. Luckily, the charges were dropped down to one misdemeanor, he went and saw a psychotherapist, and we both went to marriage counseling. It was a huge hurdle, but I thought we were well on our way to a slow recovery. I loved him dearly, and he was my husband, so I stood by him.
Over the course of the past year, I have caught him screwing around online again twice. Webcams, chatting with women, exchanging dirty pics, you name it. I told him that I found it hurtful, deceiving, and unacceptable. I realized that he had an addiction, but he needed to get it in check. He stopped going to his therapist, because he told me that the therapist informed him that he was making good progess, and could come back on an as-needed basis. I guess he felt like he didn't "need" to go anymore, despite how strongly I felt about it.
He left on deployment on February 21st - he is active duty Navy. Last week, I received an email that he meant to send to the house and to my work email. Instead of it coming to my work email, it was sent to another girl's email address whose name also started with an "M". When I questioned him about it, he told me that it was some stupid junk email sender whose address had somehow gotten saved in his outlook contacts. My heart told me otherwise. So I did some "super sleuthing", and found exactly what I dreaded. He had opened up yet another secret email address that I Was able to hack into. I found a ton of women contacts that he had been talking to. I found numerous inappropriate photos and videos that these women had been sending him. Conveniently, the "Sent" folder had been deleted. I also discovered that he ad signed up for two dating/networking sites, on which he advertised himself as available. He swears up and down that he never met up with any of these women, but it was so easy for him to lie and deceive me with everything else...How am I to know? 
So I am leaving him. I went to see an attorney on Monday, and I am filing for a divorce. We have to be legally separated for 6 months before the divorce will be finalized, but it's in the works. I just can't take anymore. I've tried and tried to stand by him through all of this, and it seems to me that he doesn't WANT to change. Otherwise, he would have given more of an effort to seek help for his issues. He knew where I stood on everything, and I've given him more changes than any normal self respecting person probably would.
I am absolutely getting the dogs, which is truthfully the only thing I am worried about getting after all of this. What a terrible mess. But I know that it happened for a reason...whatever that may be.