I have been beating myself up over and over on Jayde's future. I dont want to but I know I have to do what's best for Jayde. I have come to the decision that she deserves/needs more than I can give her. I knew what I was getting into when I got her. But I guess I was expecting her to be like Splash( the aussie stolen from me a year ago).
She needs a lot more attention than I give her. With me wanting to show Lillie or do agility with I just dont give Jayde what she needs from me. She deserves better. She needs someone that will let her be with them all the time and not have to share attention with 4 other dogs.
I have been contacted by a lady that is wanting to do therapy work with her. She already has a dog(a 3 legged rescue!) that does therapy work in a children's hospital. I really think Jayde would love the therapy work. She loves kids and she would only be an hour away so I could visit her. She would be around people constantly and I know she would love that.
I feel so bad for failing her. I knew what Aussies needed as a breed but I thought I could give her what she needed. I cant and now I'm thinking about what is best for Jayde. I feel selfish because I dont want to give her up. But I cant let her be only 75% happy with me when she could be 100% happy with someone else.
Am I doing the right thing for Jayde if I let her go?