When I look into my American Pit Bulls Eyes, this is what goes through my head, a story written by a member on a pit bull forum and the reality of what humans have done to this breed. Why not take responsibilty for the cruelty humans have inflicted on this breed. They have done nothing but serve humans with unfaltering loyalty and honor. I only wish half of the people I knew had such traits......
Your footsteps carry to my tattered ears as you make your way up the hall. Upon approach, your body speaks to me with a sense of...purpose. You seem secure in the righteosness of your task, your "mission".
Now you stand before me, a look of utter disdain and hate smeared across your face; and something more... I prostrate myself before you. On my back, I look into your eyes and lick appeasingly at my lips, seeking any semblance of mercy, the "humanity" of which you and your orginization so often speak.
I find none. I can read your body, and it shows me your eagerness to see this one task to its end. In your eyes...you see me as nothing more than a nuisance, an imagined threat, a peice of garbage to be harshly disposed of.
Yet, at the same time, you stink of fear. I can smell it as you cautiosly open the gate just wide enough to bring your pole to bare. Your fear only serves to justify my mounting terror as it signifies that there truly is no hope for mercy; not for me...not for any of my kind, not from you.
I tinkle myself. The arc of my stream reaches your leg. You sneer in disgust, and in anger you kick out at my battered body as the noose on your pole slides over my scarred head.
In your fear and hate and righteous purpose you yank me out on my back, peeing and hollering in terror. You drag me through the dark hall from which you originally came. I manage to gain my feet just to be yanked off of them again. I can't catch a breath, as your noose tightens and pulls at my throat. My cries are nothing but choked gasps.
The others cry out to me, sentiments of courage, and strength. They remind me of who I am, of what I am...My fear melts away, and as I again struggle to find my feet, it is replaced with acceptance. I am not the first this day to find my way down these dark halls at the end of a pole, and I will surely not be the last. The faces of those I pass in the hall, my kith and kin, litter mates, and sparring partners alike, show me the truth of this.
I vow not to let you see my fear; you might still smell it...if you and your kind weren't so very lost to the Earth.
Now I come along behind you. I overtake you, determined to meet my fate headon. You cringe and your fear stink rises as I pass you. You fear me...how ironic, for your kind's carefull manipulation of mine has insured your safety at my jaws.
You are determined to maintain the semblance of control and now you push me forward with your pole. My paws scrabble for purchase on the slippery floor. Half sliding, half scrabbling, we make our way to the end of the hall.
Now... I will not falter. I will not quit in this final and most difficult struggle of my short life. I will accept my end with courage and pride, as I have accepted my scars. I will not fight my fate, nor will I cower from it. The faces in the hall look on, they honor me now with silence and intense stares, as I will honor them with the dignity that befits my creed.
We pass the final door at the end of the hall. It smells of tinkle, and poop, and fear, and another sweeter smell. You lift me by my throat to a metal table. I do not struggle.
I can smell death and burning flesh. I see my kin, lying in a pile on the floor. Their eyes wide and tongues lolling...seeing no more.
My fear has been replaced by a great sadness. I pity you. Your kind, whom I and my kind have served with such devotion for hundreds of generations.
Yes. I pity you. You, who created my kind to eximplify that which you honored most in your own warriors; courage, bravery, strength, wisdom, and an indomitable spirit.
I pity you because you, and the rest of your race, have lost these traits that you so painstakingly imparted to mine.
You are a race that is weak, and full of fear. Now you seek to destroy that which you cannot understand. Perhaps you are aware of your loss, and are jealous, yes.
It is no matter. My kind has served you for its entire existance, and I, we, will continue to serve in any way you ask of us.
You created me, my lords, and, if in your infinite wisdom, you deem that you would be best served by my death, then so be it.
You hold me with your noose pole, though I would not now struggle against your wishes, as another approaches my head. as she straps the muzzle to my jaws I lick her hand. She jerks away in surprise and I can smell the fear stink again. But as I look into her eyes, and she into mine, I see them soften. She turns away.
You push me down so that I am lieing on my side on the cold metal.
She turns back to me with something in her hand. I can smell the sweet-chemical smell again. My heart beats faster in anticipation of what is to come. I do not fear any pain, for what is pain to a true warrior?
Life is so full and beautiful to my kind, and it is our most powerfull urge to live, to survive, to carry on, no matter what hardship befalls us. I fear the end of this beauty.
This is truly my most difficult battle. But I will not quit--I will win, as I have always won before, as it is in my nature to win, even if it means death.
Death has always been a possibility in all of my battles, but to win this one, I must accept my death without a fight.
Your grip on the pole tightens, as though you fear I may struggle for freedom. You needn't worry, I will night fight against your wishes.
She scratches behind my ear as the needle slips into my vein. My head drops to the cold metal table, and, as my vision fades, I see your eyes, full of hate and satisfaction...and then I see hers; as a tear rolls down her cheek. "I'm sorry." she whispers. As the last breath leaves my body, I thump my tail against the table, once, twice...I forgive you, master.