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Oh, I'm so sorry about Kayla.  Please try not to second guess yourself too much.  Of course if you knew how serious it was you would have done something different.  You're a good dog-mom. 

Oh, God, I'm so sorry.  She was a beautiful girl. 

Oh, I am so sorry.  She was a beautiful girl and it sounds like you gave her a wonderful life.  She must have been so happy to be with you when she went.  Hugs to you!

I'm so sorry for your loss. 
 
Play hard at the bridge Kayla[sm=angel.gif]

She was absolutely beautiful. I'm sorry for your loss.

Rest assured though, she's having a blast right now. You're still in her thoughts, but until you come to accompany her accross the bridge, she will keep herself busy. She will be waiting for you.
She's keeping my old buddy Ouzo company []

Ouzo:

I'm so sorry for your loss. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes..... it's so heartbreaking. I'm sorry you lost your special sweetheart.

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.  The first few days after something like this are absolutely the hardest ever. Be kind to yourself and know that with time, it will get better.

Hi Everyone
 
Thank you so much for you thoughts you dont know how much it all means to me right now.  Dont worry I will stick around here for a long time to come... Your thoughts have really ment a lot to me.  Kayla was so beautiful she was so perfect.  She was only 3 1/2, we got her from the pound at about 6 months so we got three years with my angel.  I do believe she is with me, her spirit was so great while she was alive I know it cant have gone far.  My husband and I got a dog we named Myla at the pound before her who was 6 months also who after about 5 months of having her got out of the yard and hit by a car.  That was also a shock because she was only outside for about 5 minutes.  That was really hard on us but we went back to the pound about two weeks later and saw Kayla.  Kayla was in the same cage as Myla, was the same age, same size, and was also brought in by a cop. 
 
My husband says he wants to get another dog as soon as we can because we need a dog in our lives. I agree but I dont want Kayla to feel like we are just replacing her, although I know thats not what she will think. I think she would be glad that we were saving someone else like we did her.  I am also hesitant because I dont want to compare the new dog to Kayla, which I feel like I will and that wont be fair to the new dog.  Kayla was unbelievable... everyone who met her loved her to death, everyone at the vets just loved her, the vet, after finding out that she died, said that Kayla was not a dog that she was just different somehow had such personality.  I dont think she was just saying that to make us feel better you could tell she ment it, Kayla was different. 
She was supposed to be around when we had a baby, we always talked about that, she would literally take care of my sister in laws newborn.  I wish I could post more pictures but they are all so big for some reason, but i guess you get the idea with what I have.
 
I enjoyed every minute of her life to the fullest, I have no regrets.  I think I have kissed every inch of her body (excluding the privates) numerous times.  I smelled the inside of her ears and her eyes at least 30 times a day, those smells were my absolute favorite smell in the world.  While I lay on the couch to watch tv she would be right on top of my even though she was too big (i didnt mind i loved it) with a blanket over her.  She LOVED to be under the blanket.  We have a pool in th back with one of those cleaners that travels around the bottom and every so often will squirt water in the air.  She protected us from that thing so well, she would trot around the pool and keep an eye on it all day if we would be out there and when  the little tail would come up she would make sure the water went right in her mouth as she was growling and biting at it, then come luck our face like "Hey mom i got it!"   I know shes happy, she was always happy.  She will be with us forever.
 
Thank you all so much i will check back soon, your thoughts mean so so much to me, I know it means a lot to Kayla too.

hugs to you...and you don't replace a dog you simply offer a great chance of love and life to a dog in need.
I lost my aged Sadie dawg last fall and within a month was ready to open our hearts and home to another.
I never felt like I was replacing Sadie - just offering love and a great life to another in need.
Wait until you are ready.....you'll know when the time is right.
 

I know this is just killing me, I dont eat, dont sleep, dont leave the house.  I keep her toy with me all day and night.  I am mad at the vet because she just treated this as if it was a mild case of pancreatitis and had she treated it like the killer it is from the beginning and done an MRI she would have discovered that it had ruptured, and that the iv fluids were not going to help!  Why do they do it this way??? I am at a loss.  Why assume its mild if its not mil it will quickly kill them?  Maybe because they assume the cost is high and people would prefer to wait and only do those more thorough things if absolutely necessary.  Well NO WAY!  I would have been more than happy to pay for anything ANYTHING cost was no matter, if she would have told me it was a few hundred thousand i would have sold my house no questions asked no second thoughts.  We live in New Orleans where hurricane Katrina hit and we saw on the news people on roofs with dogs who were told they had to leave their dogs and they did!!!  OMG my husband and I both said we would stay there and die with Kayla before leaving her, and we ment it. 

I just read through this thread and all I have to say is I am so very sorry for your loss. I'm in tears right now, at work. I wish I could print your last post and have my parents read it. They think I'm insane for feeling so deeply for my dogs. I said the same thing, when I saw the Hurrican Katrina coverage. I said I'd never leave my dogs. Never ever. They don't get it.
 
My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband and of course Kayla. She is in GREAT company and watching over you until she sees you again.

my wound is still raw from Sadie. But unlike your case we did expect it to come at any time with her. Even though it was a waiting game in regards to Sadie I had seen her at 10am and she was fine, went home for lunch and it was an emergency situation.
It took me quite some time to put her dishes away - they'd been in the same spot for 11.5 years! My son kept her collar and it hangs on his bedroom wall in spot he can see everyday. Heck I still have the collar of the dog I grew up with!
Your grief will ease a little more everyday. Your anger may not though.
I think pancreatitis is one of those tough things to deal with. I know a lot of people with Siamese cats who have it (not the people...the cats). It's a tough one to diagnose, treat. I bet your vet is as shocked as you are....or at least the vet should be.
 

I'm SO terribly sorry for your loss - and I'm glad that you found your way here to i-dog.  You are now in the company of others who sincerely understand your love, devotion, commitment and respect for Kayla.  She will always be your good girl and she knows how much you love her.   I know that the void after they pass is unbearable - the quiet house, the unmoved toys, the empty bed.  It's too much, I know.  Be strong and check in here often.  You will find the support you need, we ALL feel your pain.   
 
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Oh, I'm so, so sorry.[sm=angel.gif]

Amy, I'm so sorry for your loss.