Having problems with anxiety. . .

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    tacran I ADMIT IT -- I used to do exactly that (well almost) in college -- I would get up about 3:00 a.m.(whenever I work up during the night) and I would go ahead and shower, get dressed, and when my alarm rang I could THEN **race** to class -- this enabled me to sleep literally to the last moment and NOT be late!!
     
    I think it's great when we all pitch in with what works for each one -- and I readily admit, that being a smart aleck is one of my A #1 coping mechanisms!!  Humor has gotten me thru many a situation!!
     
    Lori-- holler if I can help -- you'll make it.  Very few folks could start a thread like this.  I'm darned honored yhou let us help!
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    Most of the time dreading to make the call is worse than the actual call.  Usually when I get all worked up about not wanting to do something and then actually do it, I think, "Gee, that wasn't so bad...". 
     
    I think writing out a script first is a great idea.  Its weird, I don't like making phone calls, yet my job is to answer the phone at work- and I like it!  I think I don't like to place calls is because I worry that I will sound foolish, so the script thing really helps and I do it often.
     
    My 18 year old daughter suffers from depression and once attempted suicide.  She now sees a counselor regularly, but it was decided she didn't need medication.  She is doing great now, so please get yourself some help if you feel you need it.  You will feel better...
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    Use of a 'script' is helpful to most of us.  Shoot, whether I'm temping or working a permanent job -- for MONTHS I will keep a little piece of paper in front of me that says the words *I* want to say when I answer the phone "Hi, Law office of Joe Schmuckatella.  How can I help you?" (or whatever *smile*)
     
    I've worked at my current job two years now and I STILL have a piece of paper taped to the desk that gives our phone, fax, address, etc. -- cos sure as I'm sitting there, when I want to say it I'll screw up something if it's not in front of me.  All you gotta do is distract me and I'd lose my whole brain.  Un-nerve me and I can be a real mess.  But if I have it written down, phew ... it' helps!
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    Hey Lori & Willow,
        Wanted to check the thread and see how you are doing? Maybe I have missed your post because not sure that I have seen you online the past couple days. Hope all is well[:D].......Talk to ya soon.

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    Callie,,, you are ever so right!  I am exactly the same.   Catch me a little off guard besides and I can forget my address, AND HAVE!!!
    notes, notes notes...I write them all the time to myself!
     
     
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    Hey Lori,
    Just seeing if you are ok, haven't seen you post in awhile!  Just let us all know if you are ok.
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    Yep, me too.  I'm nosy and I wanna know that you are AOK.....inquiring minds wanna know!
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    I'm here and I'm OK.  I had a horrible night last night and that was it for me, I called this morning.  Of course, my doctor isn't in until tomorrow so I left a message and she's going to get back to me in the morning.  I've recently seen her so I'm hoping I don't necessarily have to go in again.  I will if she wants me too. 
     
    DH is glad I called, he's very worried and sees that I'm worse.  The depression was worse too, crying and I'm not even sure why. 
     
    Anyway, thank you all SO, SO much.  I admit I've been avoiding posting here until I could post that I actually DID something. 
     
    I'll post an update tomorrow.  THANKS!
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    Good Girl!
    Probably knowing that you wanted to call made you even more anxious, but now the job is done. Oh you will be anxious tomorrow before she calls back, but thats okay, soon it will be over, you will talk to her, maybe she will want you to come in, maybe not, but she will help you and as soon as you talk to her you will feel 100% better.   If she doesn't call you pretty early, you call her back.
    Remember, we are all behind you 100% of the way!!!
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    Ditto everything Dyan said.
     
    And hey, if I can post on the diet thread that I ate a double cheeseburger, it's ok for you to post that you didn't talk to the doc....golly, we're here FOR you, not to pick on you!
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    Hey Lori, so glad to see you are here again.
    Well, you have passed the biggest hurdle, you called the Dr.," you go girl"  :)
    I promise, things are only going to get better from here on in. You know that we are all here for you and I'm so proud of you for taking that first step. I'm sure it was really hard but YOU DID IT!!!
    Please keep us updated as we are all waiting to hear that you are feeling better.
    Much Love
    Lena & Bianca
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    lori,
     
    an interesting thing that happened to me when i got hit with depression...perhaps you should keep in mind.
     
    i called the shrink...went for a first visit...and right after is when i had a total collapse...the shrink said that this was common...when someone finally recognizes the problem, and does something about it...they sort of let go of all the "controls" that were keeping them barely together...and kapowie!!!...you're out for the count....
     
    know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel...and it is not necessarily an incoming train...
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    Thank you all!  I also told one of my good friends at work today too.  She and I worked nights all last year and got close.  I know she won't tell the whole office and she was very supportive.  I figured at least she'll know what's going on if I'm not acting like myself or God forbid I faint or something from a side effect to any medication I'll be on. 
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    Lori glad that you were able to call the Dr. and you are on the path to a brighter tomorrow. Thanks for letting us know that you are ok[:)]

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    Lori - so glad to hear that you've taken that hardest first step.  Hopefully your experience will be like mine - the dreading of the call was the hardest part, and the subsequent steps were a bit easier (not EASY, but easier than the first one!). 
     
    I think Joel's point is an interesting one.  I hadn't thought of it that concretely, but it totally makes sense.  But, our "controls" or defense mechanisms or whatever, eventually give out, which is ultimately good I guess - it allows for changes to occur.  I know I'm really good at keeping them intact when really necessary, in order to get through the "musts" of my life, like functioning at work.  But, there comes a point where the dam breaks.  We just have to hope we're in good hands when it does.  And it sounds like you've got lots of good hands - your husband, doctor, good friend at work, and lots of people here!