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Sara

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:07:28 PM

Hi all. I'm posting here because like I've said before I only really check in in NDR latley. Thank you all very very much for your sympathies. I've checked them from time to time, but couldn't bring myself to post. Even now, I'm shaking as I type and am considering just walking away. This is the most hardest thing for me ever.

I'm trying very hard to do this between the sobs. Sara was hit by a car. Sara and I were out walking and she was on the side of the road heading back to the house when a car smacked into her. The car could have moved but didn't. The car was in Sara's way, Sara was not in her way. The woman driving continued on like nothing happend, while I screamed and held my baby. She was dead instantly, that is how hard she was hit. I wont and can't go into detail, but it was bad. I'm so angry. I'm so dam angry at that woman. How could you not see? How could you keep driving and leave me there with my poor girl?
It's been a long couple of days. I'm going on little sleep. I want to stop crying. I always thought about the future and the day I would ahve to have Sara put to sleep because of old age. I never thought she's be taken from me so soon. Too soon. It kills me. I'm lost. I loved her so much. She ment so much to me. I miss the jingle of her collar. I miss how she would come right in the bathroom and look at me like "what ya doin?" I miss her jumping in bed and laying right on me telling me to get up. I miss kissing her sweet face.

Sara was such a good dog. She listened so well. She was just wonderful with the kids. She was caring for all of the other animals we have. I've never seen a dog so gentle with baby chicks and rabbits. Sara loved them. And I felt safe with her, She would bark and her hair would stand up whenever anyone new came in our yard. and I was proud of her for that. She was watching out for us. Strangers would back away afraid and inside I was laughing because the most she would of ever done was lick you. But I didn't tell them that.
I keep thinking "what if I....?" "I should have....." I'm blaming myself for not protecting her. I'm blaming myself for walking with her. I'm blaming myself for being there at that time. This is so difficult. I'm sorry to make this so long. I just needed to get it all out.
So hug your babies tonight for me. Love them so much. (deep breath) Ok I have to go. Thank you again. And thank you sooooo much Sierra. I cried and was so happy to see Sara in the picture. My children really liked it as well. Thank you.

forpaws

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:18:36 PM

I am so sorry for you also. Know she was truly loved and cared for. You couldn't have predicted what happened, so please don't blame yourself.
Know we grieve with you and are here for you should you need us. Sara is with many of our fur kids at the rainbow bridge. Keep her memories alive with you, grieve as you need to.

Hugs to you.

jjsmom06

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:35:30 PM

Angel, I know how hard it must have been for you to type all this out. You are a very strong person, stronger than I could have been. You had to relive it all as I am sure you have been reliving it since it happened. Thank you though for shedding some light on what happened to your poor sweet Sara. I think so many of us were in total shock seeing that and despite the fact that it was none of our business, really did want to know what happened.

If you should need anything, please count me as one of the folks that will be happy to lend you an ear or a shoulder should you need it. You have my email any time you would like to use it. And while it is a necessary phase to go through, don#%92t play the “what if” and “blame” games too long. It only serves to make the grieving longer. I have been there and done that and it doesn#%92t bring them back. It is time wasted on what could be spent thinking of loving and happy memories. Or your family doing something in her memory like planting a tree or plants in her honor. Every home we have lived in has a bench, a rose bush and a plaque in honor of our past furkids. Maybe something like this would be a nice addition to your home that you and DH have worked so hard on.

Wish your kids all the best from all your idog friends and I, as I am sure many of us, will take your advice and give our furkids hugs tonight from you.

(((hugs and sloppy kisses from Shelly, JJ and Pru)))

nymaureen

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:36:11 PM

Just letting you know that I'm thinking of you and I'm so, so sorry to hear of your loss.

huskymom

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:37:00 PM

OMG! I am soooo sooo sorry. I don't know what to say. How traumatic. I can't imagine what it must have been like.

Run Free at the Bridge Pretty Girl.[

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agilebasenji

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:37:55 PM

them so much. (deep breath) Ok I have to go. Thank you again. And thank you sooooo much Sierra. I cried and was so happy to see Sara in the picture. My children really liked it as well. Thank you.

I'm so sorry. It's always hard when a dog goes. They leave such big holes in our lives. Please know you have plenty of shoulders to cry on here. Sara led a wonderful life for a dog and she was loved. And she loved.
Run free sweet Sara.

Jewlieee

Posted : 8/20/2007 7:56:09 PM

How awful! I am so sorry. We are all thinking of you and sending you virtual hugs.

georgie4682

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:00:19 PM

I am so so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through with losing her so suddenly. [&o]

pofi_pasquale

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:08:22 PM

My heart breaks for you on this loss - I saw the post today in Rainbow Bridge and was hoping it wasn't your lovely girl (not recognizing your user name my mind held on to that slender thread of hope).

Sara was a beautiful girl and I can't imagine how agonizing this is for you. I know you loved her dearly...

I send you my heartfelt sympathy and Pofi and Mia send gentle kisses...

IrishSetterGrl

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:22:22 PM

I am so, so very sorry... rest in peace, sweet Sara...

I know how hard this is for you, but please don't blame yourself. It wasn't your fault. Just by reading this post of yours, I can tell how much you loved Sara. She knew that, and still does. Take comfort in the fact that she has many furry friends where she is now, and I believe one day you will see her again. I truly believe this. It may be a long wait, but the reunion will be worth it. [

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nfowler

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:29:26 PM

Oh Angel--the day my dog unexpectedly died I hyperventilated. I thought I wouldn't make it.

I am so so so sorry. I know you will blame yourself--it's natural to, even though I don't think you should. I feel so horrible and here I am, crying for you and Sara from Idaho. You are hurting so badly and I know your heart is broken.

Please know that I'm sending you all my very best.

willowchow

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:32:29 PM

We are thinking of you and your family. We are here if you want to PM or e-mail or call.
Lori & Willow

boneyjean

Posted : 8/20/2007 8:46:26 PM

I am so so sorry for your loss...please don't blame yourself. You were doing what any responsible dog owner would be doing, walking your dog. If Sara had been on the other side of you, it could have been you that had been hit by that wreckless lady and your family would be in an even worse way as hard as it is to imagine that right now. Sara was doing what she does best and protecting you. She was a good girl and loved her family very much. Try not to beat yourself up over it. It isn't your fault. Mistakes happen through no fault of our own sometimes.

Many hugs for you and your family! Run free sweet girl!

cakana

Posted : 8/20/2007 9:37:26 PM

I'm so very sorry to read what happened to Sara and I'm even more sorry that you had to witness it. I have no words of wisdom other than that Sara wouldn't have wanted you to feel guilty or sad. You were doing something she loved in taking her for a walk and you had no control over the circumstances. As much as we love them, there is only so much we can do to shelter and protect them. Run free sweet Sara [sm=angel.gif]

lorib

Posted : 8/20/2007 11:09:19 PM

I can't believe that the woman didn't stop. I am so sorry for your loss. [

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