polarexpress
Posted : 7/22/2007 10:20:15 AM
ORIGINAL: Benedict
ORIGINAL: Chuffy
As much as Snape turned out to be good, in his way, he was SELFISH to his last dying breath. I hate Snape more now than I ever did.
Why?
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I posted this on an HP forum, I am pretty much going to quote it verbatim here.
Because as far as I can figure out, the "deep significance" of Harry's eyes was that although Harry was the spitting image of James, his eyes (the proverbial windows to the soul) were Lily's. They served as a constant reminder to Snape of what he had lost at Voldy's hands, and thus why the struggle against Voldy must continue. Snape spent the better part of 6 years trying to make Harry's life a misery because he was jealous that Harry was not his own son. That he felt he had the right to die looking into the eyes of the woman he loved (although they were Harry's) after he had spent so long being horrible to the son she died to protect struck me as being INCREDIBLY selfish.
Sorry, I disagree with this interpretation that he was trying to somehow be with Lily as he died and that is selfish.
I can see this different ways: he was looking one last time at something worth dying for, he was seeking reassurance and forgiveness even though he failed to protect Harry---because he's dying and leaving Harry unprotected--- or maybe he's seeing success at keeping Harry alive so far.
Yes, Snape loved Lily. Loving Lily saved him from becoming a totally evil follower of Voldemort. He spent all of Harry's life trying to insure that Harry would live. Was he angry that Harry wasn't his own son? Yes. Did he also dislike Harry's father who was no boyscout and rather mean to Snape? Yes. Quite honestly I think James could be rather nasty as a boy at Hogwarts. The split between Lily and Snape happened as a result of James and friends doing something mean to Snape, right?
Plus, Snape is a spy. He can't exactly publicly embrace The Boy Who Lived, now can he?
Okay---that's the background. Bottom line:
Snape has spent 16+ years trying to protect Lily's son.
He risked horrible, horrible, torture and death on a daily basis for years to keep Harry safe.
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Snape is dying and he cannot be sure Harry will be safe. All that he has lived for, risked for, and now will die for could be lost. Has he failed? (After all, he failed to keep Lily safe.)
Was it all for nothing? The answer is in Harry's eyes.
Call if selfish if you want but NO ONE risked more or gave up more for Harry than Snape. Living a double life he was totally alone and isolated with no one but Dumbledore knowing the truth. He had no real friends and couldn't make any real friends or have any relationships because of his dual life. Emotionally he gave up everything. We all know the physical risks of betraying Voldemort---compound that by having information Voldemort wants and the result is never-ending torture.
Throwing youself in front of someone to protect them and dying in a split second is brave and noble. Throwing yourself in front of someone to protect them on a daily basis is dying painfully by inches and just as brave and noble.
Snape didn't die in an instant like Lily and James, but when she died he gave up his life in every sense of the word.
So did he have the right to die looking into Harry's eyes? By saving Harry he also saved the wizardly and muggle worlds, so I think he earned it a hundred fold.