First off, I really just want to explode and vent. I don't WANT advice (although I'm sure some people will take it upon themselves to give it anyway), I just want to vent.
I broke up with the BF a few days ago, and I was mad (not really about the breakup...just mad), so I went over to my friend Craig's place (he was home for the weekend) and did something that I just don't do. I drank. A lot.
I was too drunk to drive home, so I stayed over there. When I woke up, sober, but hungover (#2 reason why I don't drink), I went home, and, still angry, sat down to write an e-mail. An e-mail I sent to Adam. I don't know WHY I did it, I just did. Of course, I immediately regretted it.
So, now, we're not talking...I think. I don't know if he's just being Adam and he's too busy to speak, or if he's mad at me (He's pretty passive aggressive). So all I'm doing now is panicking and worrying and fretting and wondering WTF is wrong with me that I'd go and do something like this.
I ruin EVERYTHING good in my life. I swear. I want to take it back, but I can't. Oh what I wouldn't give to have John Coffey around right now.