g33
Posted : 1/19/2007 12:13:00 PM
LOL you guys, thanks for the congrats!! See, you guys don't "know" me so of course it is safe to share with you! I had to tell SOMEbody!! It's really hard to feel all the things I am feeling and not be able to share. But, if something happened to the baby it would be much harder to have to deal with people I see and talk to every day, I'm sure you all know what I mean.
I've kind of been in shock actually...like it's so early yet I haven't really been able to connect that there is this tiny critter growing inside me. I am more aware of things I put into my body as well as where I allow my mental state to go; I'm getting the commitment to living for something beyond just myself and it gets me out of selfish-mode.
Ron is a bit more anxious than I am, work is slowing down a bit so he has some provider anxiety right now. Since he is self employed, our insurance comes through my job...so I will not be able to stop working, no way. Those are conversations we will have to have, and tough choices we will have to make. But I am certain that this is absolutely a God's timing kind of thing (it's seriously a miracle; six years ago I was told I would never be able to conceive without extreme measures) and I know that He will take care of us.
Personally I am hoping for a boy. Ron is a fantastic Dad and he would really enjoy a son to do "man" things with. Of course, he wants another daughter because they are "easier" LOL!