Need your prayers again. I'm not ready to say goodbye

[&o]Oh Glenda...I am so sorry that you are going through this right now on top of everything else you and your family have had to deal with this year.  My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.
 
Shelly

oh Glenda, your family and esp your Mother have all our thoughts. I won't even pretend I can feel an ounce of what you must be feeling, it's too profound and personal I am sure,  but I can sure send hope.
 
Please don't forget to take care of yourself...and let other people take care of you, just your entire family take care of each other.

It isn't fair...she's been through so much and was finally starting to feel like her old self and enjoy life again and then out of the blue.  And I don't know if this doctor is just tired of dealing with it, or what.  This is the doc who scared the tar out of her that if she didn't have colon surgery it would rupture....and the specialist who did the colonoscopy says, uhhh, no......just a tiny affected section.  He runs hot and cold and is sometimes just wonderful with her and other times acts like she's a gnat buzzing around his head.......and I've seen that even when she was in the hospital.  I'm scared guys.  I don't know what to think and I'm just flat out scared.  I don't want my Mom to die...not now...not yet.

I would get her a new Dr. I hope she is ok Glenda, will say a prayer here. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you.

Dawn

Im so sorry Glenda.  Be strong and be prepared for whatever the outcome may be.  My thoughts are with you and your Mother, and the rest of your family.  I hope some miracle happens for you all and for her to make it through this.  Accept that you have no control and enjoy every moment.  Sending good healing thoughts to your family. 

I will pray for the best for you and your family.  I can't imagine how hard this is for you.  Fortunately, you have 6 of the best therapists in your house!  Make sure you let them do their job of comforting you!  I know it's not enough to make the pain go away, but they always seem to know when you are down.

Oh Glenda, I am so sorry that you and she are going through this.
Honey  you need to get there and say what you need to say and do what you need to do, I am not in anyway saying that Dr is correct, but it will make you feel better. I know that w/ the new job and the dogs this is not easy, but  trust me you will be so happy you did it.
I am lighting the candles what is moms name?
Please keep us informed, and come and talk.

Hazel.  Her name is Hazel.
 
I will talk to her in the morning when I go see her in the hospital and ask her about changing to MY doctor.  He is in the same practice, but it was HIS treatment of her in the ER that caused DH and I to change to him.  She doesn't like the current guy and was just trying to find a gentle way to change....like saying that she would be more comfortable with one of the women docs. Mom isn't one to rock the boat.  If she oks it, I'll go IN and see my doc and ask him to take over her case.  Sis will likely have to back me up since she has power of attorney but we've already discussed this.
 
My father died 28 years ago at the ripe old age of 57.  I know this sounds incredibly selfish, but I'm not ready to let Mom go.....not this way, not because a doctor just gives up.  And SHE isn't ready to go yet either.

aw, glenda!
I'll surely pray for your mother and your family.
I'm really sorry that you are having to go through this!

Gosh Glenda, once again I'm so sorry to hear what you and your family are going thru.  I think there may be a good chance that you're right on about this Dr. though.  Her BP bouncing around does not necessarily mean everything's shutting down.  I don't know any other details, but it sounds a littlle bit of an off-the-cuff statement.  My dad passed away last Jan. at 87 and I can tell you that for the last 2 years, it was really difficult to get Dr's to respond seriously to any of his problems.  It was like they all thought "well, the guy's old, whadda ya expect?"  It was frustrating and at times, heartbreaking.  Between you and your sister, and we all know how tough you can be when necessary, you can get some honest answers on her condition, even if it means switching Dr's. 
 
I don't think we're ever ready to lose our parents, especially when we've already lost one (my mom died when I was 12 and she was 44).  It's one of the most difficult things we face, so my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family if indeed that time has come.

My father died 28 years ago at the ripe old age of 57. I know this sounds incredibly selfish, but I'm not ready to let Mom go..

Not at all! I know I went through exactly the same thing. A daughter who looses her mother changes who she is, whether the relationship is good or bad, I was lucky my relationship w/ my mother was amazing!

Prayers coming from over here--hang in there Glenda.....

Mother and I are different as night and day.  Much of that is her generation vs mine. She's very much a people pleaser while I'm more of a crab, she's always been the good girl, while I, well, we won't go into that.  She gives of herself absolutely tirelessly and while I give, I do draw limits.  Mom doesn't.  She FINALLY resigned from the Church's funeral committee, after heading it up for TEN years and only this year has she been willing to sit back a little and let OTHERS do the work while she did the organizing.  Its nothing for her to be down at the Church for absolute hours cooking for a Church dinner or getting the funeral dinners prepped.  And she still volunteers with RSVP and gives enormous amounts of time.  She is also incredibly patient with everyone, while I do NOT have the patience of a saint.
 
But, she's my Mom, and different as we are, we love each other....she's my Mom, and I'm her baby girl.  I'm rambling now...I'm sorry.

A little update.....DS just called and they are taking her for a CT scan, thinking she may have a small bleed.  I have no idea what they can do for something like that, so please keep the prayers coming.