Cita
Posted : 11/7/2010 8:15:09 PM
lol, Joyce. You know your dog addiction is bad when you buy your lingerie at the pet store.
Glenda, hope you're fixed up ASAP!!
If anyone remembers The Great Teapot Fiasco with my crazy step-mother, the saga is not yet over. I sent her a replacement-replacement - an exact replacement for the one I broke - and she sent me back this semi-snarky reply that was at least her trying to be nice. So I figured, issue over. Nope! Now I'm in trouble for not responding to that latest email. My dad at least acknowledged that she was out of line with her initial horrible responses, and said he "talked to her about it," but a nice email from me "would go a long way." I pointed out that I bend over backward to try to accommodate her and be sensitive to her feelings, but in return she doesn't care a flying flip if she offends ME, or hurts MY feelings. He agreed (at least), but then said he's "working on it." Yeah, good luck with that. Ugh. IMO it really is an abusive relationship, but he absolutely does not want to get out of it, so it is what it is.
I had a nice week with BF. He almost exploded my brain when he asked, "When do you think we should think about getting married?" My first answer was, "After you propose!" I tried to convey that I want marriage to reflective of a strong desire for a lifetime commitment, not just hey, ho hum, we've been dating a long time, I guess we should get married or something.
I don't know. I'm feeling like right now, his career is priority #1 and our relationship is priority #2, and that's okay, but I'm not sure if that's a good way to enter into a marriage. But I'm having a hard time gauging whether I'm being overly emotionally needy (I'm pretty lonely here at school, and he's not) or if he's not fully grasping what it would mean to be married. A big concern for us is what will happen when we've graduated and are looking for jobs as professors - it can be very difficult to find comparable jobs at the same university, so there's going to have to be some really tough decisions down the road. I want to make sure he's committed to making them as a couple (unlike our grad school decisions, where it felt like he wanted to make the decision all by himself, and got mad at me for meddling). He still doesn't seem to understand my frustration with how that whole process went down. It makes me wonder if maybe he's not mature enough yet for marriage. Or maybe I'm just being a demanding PITA and requiring him to agree with me.
Anyone have good resources for helping figure out when "it's time"? Like, a checklist or something? :-p I tend to be emotionally very needy, so I'm having trouble objectively understanding if my complaints and concerns are legitimate or if I'm just causing problems for myself because I'm afraid of marriage! (See step-mother example for one reason why!)