Spooky Sunday chat

OH. MY. GAWD!!!!  It was snowing between Manchester and Bennington VT and also into the northern reaches of MA on the VT border.  And STICKING!!  BLECCCCCCCHHHHHH!  Not YET please....maybe February???

OK, the critters that were off to the side, are now directly BEHIND our back yard so I can't take the dogs out into the field.  Crud.  It's llamas and alpocias and of course sheep.  The llamas were staring and giving the kids the EVIL eye when we were in OUR yard, so I'm certainly glad to see that they can't jump the fence...it's only about 4 foot high.

 That's awesome about the kids and the fear factor thing. I'm sure that this will stick with those kids forever.

Ahhhh home sweet home. I'm so ready for bed and it's only 7:30ish. 

I guess I should have bought some candy. there were tons of kids out around my sub this year. Weird!

 Had to do the heimlich on Jules today as he decided inhaling a piece of meat, rather than chewing like he normally would, was a great idea.  Thank heavens he did so while I was about a foot away. I heard a scuffle sound in his crate and found him doing a seizure like activity on his side (I think he was panicking..but he was on his side, limbs stiff and shaking). Scooped him out, did the mouth sweep (couldn't feel the meat) and did the heimlich. Thankfully the lamb came out quickly.

 Jules was fine and was attempting to re-eat the food moments later.  (I took it away, to his dismay)

Darned terriers

OMG Scary!  Glad to hear he is doing ok now.

A quarter to 8pm and not a trick or treater one.  Sigh.

I ran out of candy last year, so this year I got 2 BIG bags.  I only got 20 or so trick or treaters.  Anyone want some candy?  Lol, I think I'll have to take some into work.

I don't think I posted here, but when I went to get my new kitty (in cat section), the lady told me she had a friend with a hairless dog living outside.  I took him in, and my rescue agreed to him as an 'official' foster dog.  Today, Winston (formerly Rat-dog) went to his new foster home.  YAYYY!

Am getting packed up and ready to leavve -- our flight leaves AT 9 so gotta be out of here and into the transport by 6 or before.  It's been an awesome weekend, packed with memories.  "Merchant of Venice" was beyond awesome (if you saw the movie Pacino did with Jeremy Irons about 4 years ago it was actually very different - Portia is THE GREATEST role ever written for a female. I always cry my way thru the whole second act. 

We just had an awesome time.  I know such a weekend isn't most folks idea of "vacation" but it makes us happy LOL.  We went to John's Pizzaria (rolling eyes *TWICE*) LOL -- but that penne with vodka sauce last night was beyond delish.  good vodka sauce is my idea of Heaven anyway LOL.

Will jump on when I get home.  Thanks for the good thots. Am so glad I'm missing "halloween" at home.  rah.  Seeing all the folks dressed up on the street here -- ummm ... not much different than the typical NY weirdos -- some guy looked at me and said "what are YOU dressed up as?" and I said ... "TIRED!"

I need a vacation. That's all I have to say. This is more of a rant than anything, sorry guys, just need to get it off my chest. This week has just been so crappy. I've injured myself 3 times, it's cold and snowy, my workplace is driving me nuts, my car got egged last night and my dad is acting out like a child. Honestly, I'm done with it all. Hopefully November brings some better times, because I'm ready to tell everyone off. I don't know what's up with my managers, but they've been really getting on my nerves lately. It doesn't help that my favourite member of management got laid off, so now I have to deal with the idiots who have no clue how to run things properly. One of them flipped their lid at me the other day, which I have no patience for. I don't care if you're in a grumpy mood, don't take it out on me. Then yesterday, my general manager asked to have a meeting in his office. Oh oh. I wasn't expecting it AT ALL. I've worked there for nearly 3 years and have had a meeting with a manager once, way back when I first started. I knew it wasn't going to be good, I felt it in my gut. This is a manager who nobody can stand, he creates so many enemies and really has an issue with power struggles. He always feels the need to let people know he's in charge, like he owns the place, which he doesn't. He had a nice little speech about my short comings. EXCUSE ME? There were the most petty, ridiculous things I have ever heard in my life. Things that didn't even need to be discussed. It really put a damper on my mood. I've always worked hard, never called in sick, never missed a day and came in 15 mins late ONCE in almost 3 years because I had to take the bus and it didn't show. I'm a member of "key staff"- we're basically the role models for the other staff and recieve perks. But you know what? Apparently that all doesn't matter. It's okay the other staff members come in 30 mins late on a regular basis, miss shifts, slack off, but I'm the one who needs a talking to. *$&#@ you, is all I can say. I've put so much into that place, but that's not good enough I guess. I've taken pride in my work, but now my confidence in what I do has really plummeted. *sigh*

Then today, my dad decided to act like a complete jerk. Like I mentioned, my car got egged last night. It's not the first time something like this happened. Last year our house got egged and my car got vandelized (ripped spoiler off, left huge dents, stole wipers, etc) He had the nerve go on a huge rant saying that someone must be targeting me, that someone must really hate me because I have a bad attitude, etc. Apparently he was on a roll because he went on to worse things like I had no friends, the ones that I did have weren't really my friends, they just used me as a taxi, I should just move out right away, etc. It all just came spewing out of nowhere. What kind of father says that to their daughter? Does it surprise me? Nope. He's not your typical affectionate, lovey father figure, unfortunately. He has an extremely crappy relationship with his father, so you'd think he'd try to stop the cycle, but apparently not. I am moving out, not till the summer, but I just can't wait. I've had it with my mother's excuses too. I don't give a flying crap if he doesn't mean what he says, he's just in the moment, I shouldn't argue back, etc etc.

Needless to say, my self confidence has really taken a toll. Sorry to ramble on about this nonesense, I'm mostly just talking to myself, heh.

I went to the inlaws and we only had 20 or so kids too. Pirate's favorite tech from our vets office came by with her toddler dressed as Snow White. TOO CUTE and made it worth all the teenagers in tshirts.

I'm presenting my big unit plan to my supervising teacher tomorrow. Eeep.

Grab, I had a client choke on a hunk of Z/D canned once. He did the whole fall-on-his-side and flail thing, and as I was clearing his airway he bit my finger really bad! Through the nail!! Little stinker didn't die on me though :)

That seriously sucks. It doesn't matter whether he means it or not, you should always feel like you have the right to stand up for yourself and try to stop the verbal abuse. Keep facing forward..you're going to escape in just a few months! (My favorite "life is totally crap" move is to curl up in my bed with my dogs, lock the door, turn off my cell phone, and find a ridiculous movie to laugh at...might help you feel better, too!)

((((Sarah))))

DS#2 took Cher with him to treat street.  She carried his trick or treat bag around.  Apparently, she was a big hit because he came home with 2.5 bags of candy to his brother's 0.5 bag of candy.  DS#1 was not impressed, & tried to convince DS#2 that they should combine their candy & share it equally.  DS#2 announced "I'm not a communist!  You should have worked harder for your candy." 

I'm so glad that he's paying attention in school!

BEVOLASVEGAS

DS#2 took Cher with him to treat street.  She carried his trick or treat bag around.  Apparently, she was a big hit because he came home with 2.5 bags of candy to his brother's 0.5 bag of candy.  DS#1 was not impressed, & tried to convince DS#2 that they should combine their candy & share it equally.  DS#2 announced "I'm not a communist!  You should have worked harder for your candy." 

I'm so glad that he's paying attention in school!

Love it! Great to hear kids are actually learning something in school. 

Luke, my friend and I all dressed as Jedi and sat outside to give out our candy. We had 30 or so kids come by I think. I bought the pretzels and fruit roll ups this year, because I figured not many kids where coming. I didn't want to be stuck with a ton of chocolate. I did get two of the smaller bags of chocolate that I really like, and kept them behind me. I figured if I gave everything out, I'd put those in the bowl. We turned off the lights at 8, and went to visit someone. While we were over there, my bag got stuffed full of candy. So, now I have my left over chocolate, the chocolate I got there, and a few of my left over pretzels and fruit roll ups.

I'm so sorry for your crappy day. Sounds like your managers are real donkey-holes. You know what might be fun? Sit down and have "a talk" with yourself. Only it's not a scolding talk like your boss gave, it's a "you're a terrific person and have been doing a terrific job!" talk. You could write it all out and everything. Hey, if your boss isn't going to recognize your good qualities, sometimes you just have to take things into your own hands, ya know?? :o)

I just had to respond to this part:

PrincessPenny

He's not your typical affectionate, lovey father figure, unfortunately. He has an extremely crappy relationship with his father, so you'd think he'd try to stop the cycle, but apparently not.

Honestly, I think that "typical" parent image we all seem to have - you know, the stern but loving father and the cookie-baking soccer mom - those aren't actually typical parents. Your bosses who are being jerks may very well be parents. Your obnoxious coworkers who show up late and are irresponsible may very well be parents. Heck, the people egging your car may be parents! Almost all of us are stuck with parents who say mean things, act irresponsibly, and are otherwise un-parent-like. It's not just you. I think one of the cruelest tricks life plays on us is leading us to believe that parents are magical creatures who suddenly become wise and patient and loving when they create babies. It just doesn't work that way! Turns out, parents are every bit as flawed as children, they're just older!! So, it's not just you struggling with parental issues. I'm really sorry you got emotionally pooped on like that. But you are not alone in feeling this way. As you (and your mom) said, he doesn't mean it, etc. etc., but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt and that does NOT mean it's okay for him to take things out on you that way.

The good new is, it sounds like **you** are well poised to break that cycle. So you can file such experiences away onto the "things not to do to my children" list and try to grit your teeth and look at it clinically as a learning experience. And count the days until you can get the heck out of dodge!! Life will get sooooooo much better!!!

I grew up in a very emotionally abusive household - I really know how it feels. It sounds like you're doing a great job of coping as best you can, which means you will be on the road to a very happy life once you're farther removed from the toxic family drama. ("Great job coping with difficult situations" - another thing to add you your pep talk speech! ;)) Feel free to drop me a line if you ever need a sympathetic ear. I'm just a PM away :)