Mending my broken Heart

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    Mending my broken Heart

    Thank you everyone for your kind words from the other day. i ahve been through something terrible.
     
    Last week while in the middle of topic, my house was hit by lightning. My computer is fried. i'm working to get it fixed, but I don't know when i will be back.
     
    Then, Friday night I get a phone call from crazy neighbor. he's at work at ask if the cops are at his place. I tell him no. his girlfriend had been calling him at work to come home and said the cops were raiding his house and he had to get home. None of this was true. At 10 pm I went outside for a smoke with my husband to see the crazy neighbors dog running with a duck in his mouth.
     
    I ran out to my pen to see ALL of my ducks torn to peices. The dog had torn my pens apart and killed 18 ducks. it was very dark outside and I was using a flashlight to see what I could. Ducks were torn apart, blood everywhere and some were still alive and trying to get out of the pond. The babies were torn and some were trampled. I called the crazy girl and was telling her what was happening and she says  "sorry about that, we'll pay for them. You better call john at work and tell him to come home"  She let this dog out on purpose knowing he would come and kill the ducks so her boyfriend would come home from work.
     
    I went to her house in the dark and heard her tell the dog "good boy"  I went back home and tried to find any ducks I could that were still alive. I found one female and 6 1 week ld babies.  I've never cried so hard in my life. To see my pets that i ahve spent everyday with, raising and helping to hatch dead and with heads missing.  i called the cops and the cops wont do anything. He told us to back off because these people are part of a big motorcycle gang, and that it's in our best interest to back off.
     
    John called at 12 am to say he was sorry and that he would pay for the damage. I have not received a dime and they watch me in the morning cleaning the remains and taking apart the pen.
     
    I am a mess. I don't drink. Yesterday was my daughters birthday party and everyone was so upset. i drank a bottle of wine and the pain went away, but it's back today.
     
    I wont be here until i can get a new computer or mine is fixed. i wish I had the computer because I really need some support right now. I have been crying for 3 days and my eyes are so swollen. I will miss you all, I will pop in when I can get to the computer.
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    Oh Angel what a horrible weekend.  I am so sorry all of this horrible stuff has happened.  Me, Harley and Izzy will keep you in our thoughts.  I am sure Sara will be good for some snuggles to try to help you feel better....
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    Aww Angel, I'm so sorry.  Do you *own* at this place (so you have to stay?)
     
    If the cops feel powerless (and essentially that's what they told you) then realistically there isn't much you can do.  People like that think it is FUNNY to hurt someone as sensitive and caring as you are.  So since she couldn't get him to "come home" any other way, she used you. 
     
    The one consolation is their relationship likely won't last.  She's jealous and manipulative and he knew it earlier in the evening when he called you to find out what was going on at HIS house. 
     
    Please stay safe -- if this guy felt like he knew you well enough to call YOU to find out if his house was 'ok' then I'd stay on the good side of him.  I wouldn't ask for money -- in fact, I'd either simply leave them alone or actually be 'nice'.  My guess is the girlfriend is probably jealous of YOU.  She may know he thinks you are 'ok' and that threatens her.  So just don't say anything -- sometimes you can be 'right' at the expense of your own safety -- and in this particular case it will likely all eventually fall on HER.
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    I don't know how to say how badly I feel for you. I would be a wreck too, if I were you. Right now, I know I might be contacting an atourney, but then again, I don't know. I just wish there was some way that you could get across to these two that the ducks are more than money. Money doesn't buy everything or replace everything.
     
    Please, don't give up on having ducks. It has always sounded like you love having them, and I know how painful this is, but don't give up. This woman needs to have something knocked into her head, I just don't know what. But, perhaps, when you are feeling slightly better, you can make her see what she's done to you, all for some petty reason.
     
    I wish I could tell them that sorry doesn't cut it. Money doesn't cut it.
     
    You'll be in Maddi and My thoughts, and I hope this doesn't drive you away from something you love. Good luck, and best wishes.
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    Paying for the damage is just not enough to mend such emotional damage. I can't even imagin why someone would purposly let ther dog do such a thing. When I had ducks I had a dog who ate one of them. The dog was rehomed but the damage was done and I felt like a horrible owner to my ducks. But to have someone else not even stop their dog after watching it get the first few duck and let it eat the whole flock! I can't understand, no, I don't want to understand, it just makes me mad.[:@]
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    Oh, that's so horrendous! What awful people! I'm so sorry about your ducks, poor things! And lightning hit your house? I'm so glad no one was hurt!

    Hang in there, stay away from the wine, and be comforted that in the end those people WILL get what's coming to them. You may not be around to see it, but I believe there is justice in the Universe. HUGS.
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    Oh Angel, I am crying here as I read your post. I hurt for you and with you girlfriend. There is nothing I can say to make the pain go away, just know I am thinking of you.
    Definately stay on the good side of this guy especially if the cops are saying to be cautious around him cause of MC gang. Take that to the bank and use caution. They can be you best friend or they can be your worst nightmare. It also leads me to believe the cops are watching him closely.

    HUGE HUGS ANGEL  wish I could be there to let you cry on my shoulder.........
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    Angel, it's so perfectly awful that you and the poor ducks had to be pawns in this extremely dysfunctional game your neighbors are playing with one another; I can't tell you how sorry I am.  But she's clearly unhinged and is pretty much lacking any moral compass, so I do understand why the cops are advising caution. I can't imagine the grief and anger you are feeling.  Know that you have my sympathy and empathy.
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    Oh god, I am so sorry.   I can't even imagine such a thing.   My heart goes out to you.
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    Oh gosh, I am speechless that someone let their dog do this to your ducks. I am so sorry. What in the world is wrong with people? I think I would have to go slap that girl.
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    I can't believe you are having to deal with this.  Im so so sorry for the loss of your ducks and the computer.  I know theres nothing I can say that will change anything and thats incredibly frustrating... I wish I sould be there to help.  You are a good person, a strong person, and you will get through this... it will get better, just grieve and give yourself some time to repair.  Im so sorry, please let me know if theres anything you need that I can possibly do from a distance. 
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    Angel, I'm so sorry you have to go through something this horrible. I'm stunned that someone would deliberately let their dog out to do a thing like that, and I have to say I'm equally stunned by the cops attitude.  They belong to a motorcycle gang so everyone has to back off??  If someone belongs to a motorcycle gang, it's OK to wreak havoc and mayhem on someone else, and nobody can do anything?? Unbelieveable.[:@]

    Joyce
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    I'm just soooo sorry.  Big (((((HUGS))))).
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    I just lost my whole message for some reason and have to start over. Forgive me for any errors. This keyboard is really really different, and I am writting this through teary eyes. Thank you all so much. This has been so rough, I am lost. It's so upsetting to go outside and see an empty pen. It will cost $360 to replace what I lost. The people have not come to see how I am, so I know they will not replace the ducks.

    My husband has been great support. He told my mother "I've never seen her cry like this, I wish I could take it all away" and I bawled.  I had to take pictures for proof and I got them back today. It was so bad. I raised all of these from babies. Some I hatched some I bought. I'm just a wreck. I don't know how I will make it through this. I know that you all know how I'm feeling. Some people dont get it. They think it's just ducks, get over it. I am using my mothers computer and now have to go. I miss you all already. So everyone take care and be safe. Give your pooches snuggles from me. I'm crying already, just having to say goodbye. I could really use all the support right now, and I know you all are perfect. I hope my computer comes back ok.

    Take care everyone, I'll talk to you soon.
     
     
    If anyone has sent me email, please forgive me but I can't get it until my computer is back.
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    I'm so sorry that you have been having such a terrible time of it.  Sending sympathy and good vibes for you.
     
    Kate