Thank you everyone for your kind words from the other day. i ahve been through something terrible.
Last week while in the middle of topic, my house was hit by lightning. My computer is fried. i'm working to get it fixed, but I don't know when i will be back.
Then, Friday night I get a phone call from crazy neighbor. he's at work at ask if the cops are at his place. I tell him no. his girlfriend had been calling him at work to come home and said the cops were raiding his house and he had to get home. None of this was true. At 10 pm I went outside for a smoke with my husband to see the crazy neighbors dog running with a duck in his mouth.
I ran out to my pen to see ALL of my ducks torn to peices. The dog had torn my pens apart and killed 18 ducks. it was very dark outside and I was using a flashlight to see what I could. Ducks were torn apart, blood everywhere and some were still alive and trying to get out of the pond. The babies were torn and some were trampled. I called the crazy girl and was telling her what was happening and she says "sorry about that, we'll pay for them. You better call john at work and tell him to come home" She let this dog out on purpose knowing he would come and kill the ducks so her boyfriend would come home from work.
I went to her house in the dark and heard her tell the dog "good boy" I went back home and tried to find any ducks I could that were still alive. I found one female and 6 1 week ld babies. I've never cried so hard in my life. To see my pets that i ahve spent everyday with, raising and helping to hatch dead and with heads missing. i called the cops and the cops wont do anything. He told us to back off because these people are part of a big motorcycle gang, and that it's in our best interest to back off.
John called at 12 am to say he was sorry and that he would pay for the damage. I have not received a dime and they watch me in the morning cleaning the remains and taking apart the pen.
I am a mess. I don't drink. Yesterday was my daughters birthday party and everyone was so upset. i drank a bottle of wine and the pain went away, but it's back today.
I wont be here until i can get a new computer or mine is fixed. i wish I had the computer because I really need some support right now. I have been crying for 3 days and my eyes are so swollen. I will miss you all, I will pop in when I can get to the computer.