Wisdom for us, good thots & prayers for Ms. Kee please

 Aw. I'll be thinking of you and sending calming, peaceful vibes for everybuddy. ((hugs))

Dr. DiNatale herself just phoned me.  David had emailed me this morning and she *did* poop this morning, and I told her that.

BUT she said her refusal to take more than a mouthful of food this morning was THE sign we've been waiting for.  Even if she eats "some" tonight it's time. 

She also told me to go home and give her fluids tonight *before* David gets home so she's hydrated before we go out.  So honestly, I think I'm gonna ask Andy if I can leave a bit early.  I want her body to have time to absorb them well.  It will make it easier on her and easier for the vet to hit a vein with a catheter (who knew -- man, I am learning a TON here). 

I was afraid after David emailed that I'd mis-judged this morning, but nope -- my gut was right.  Dr. D has probably seen (no "probably" about it -- she HAS) Kee more than any other vet has ever touched her.  But I'm glad I don't have to make Dr. D do this. 

But the first valerian root of the evening is for me.  Now I need strength -- to give her fluids **by myself** without dissolving into a puddle of tears is gonna take all the guts I've got.  I can be stoic about my pain but not theirs.  I can do it -- I can.

Peaceful calming vibes headed your way.  I'm thinking about you all.

Sending prayers your way for Kee and the whole family. We'll light a candle here for your little angel tonight. 

Oh dear, Callie, my heart is breaking for you & David.  I KNOW you have the wisedom to make the right decision for Miz Kee.  I pray that she finds her way to the Bridge peacefully.  ((warmest hugs))

I'm so sorry Callie.  I'll light a candle for you, David and Miss Kee.  I know you'll do whatever your heart tells you is the right thing.

Joyce

calliecritturs

But the first valerian root of the evening is for me.  Now I need strength -- to give her fluids **by myself** without dissolving into a puddle of tears is gonna take all the guts I've got.  I can be stoic about my pain but not theirs.  I can do it -- I can.

Oh Callie, I wish I was there to help you.  You can do it, you will.  Call me if you want to talk or cry. 

 Oh, Callie, I'm so sorry.

(((((((((hugs)))))))))) and strength to you, David, and the crew.

 Thinking of you RIGHT NOW and building you a wall of strength to put all the "stuff" behind until the proper time.  My heart breaks for you.  I can't imagine it, a part of me doesn't want to even try.... But you can do it.  Sending you all the vibes we got from this side of the pond....

Callie as I sit here with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes I wish I could think of all the right things to say to ease your "pain".  You have been a rock for me and many others here that have been at this point with our beloved pets.  Now you, need us for support.  By all means you have it. 

Ms Kee when you picked your family, you picked well.  They love you and we all hope you will have a very peaceful journey across the bridge.  Your boyfriend is anxiously waiting and he has told all the others that a very special lady will arrive soon.  They are preparing a special place in the warm sun for you to rest up.  When you wake, you will run, play, smell, see and enjoy your new life and friends.  Your mommy and daddy will be there in body to see you off but know that there is a host of others here that will be there in heart and spirit.  Please help Tink understand that you must go and that you will be watching over her.

Callie my prayers are with you all.  If there is anything at all I can do.....I have used your shoulder before please dont hesitate to use mine.

 i dont really know what to day, except I'm feeling that lump in the back of my throat, sending wishes for a peaceful journey for Ms. Kee.  sounds like she made amazing things happen in her golden years.

Part of me kept hoping that when I got home she'd decide she was RAVENOUS and we might not have to do this tonight. 

But nope -- she ate a *little* -- and with no relish or gusto.  Mostly shoving it flat with her little flat peke face.  War in the mind -- "MUST eat ... dont wanna ... MUST ... EAT ... TO ... LIVE .... don't ... feel like it.  Must .... No ... " and finally she just plain shoved the bowl away.

Gave her fluids.  She's settled remarkably easy. 

Tink is NOT happy.  She's jumped up and down and down and up -- and honestly, the actions of the other 3 tell me solidly it is time.  Billy and Luna know cos they've experienced it.  Tink doesn't want to *know* what her nose tells her.

I'm fine.  Your support means SO much.  I was able to bathe her (of course she "baptized" my floor as soon as I got her to the kitchen so a bath was in order LOL).  Honest:  That's where I feared I'd lose it -- but I was able to deal, and trying to coax her to eat helped *me* realize how much *I* wanted to put it off, so I feel good about the decision.

It's 6:05 and David called and he's on his way home (he's 45 minutes away plus traffic at this hour).

We nearly mis-communicated on this one -- he wasn't reading MY email as carefully (nor as early) as I hoped and he was hoping she'd eat "enough" to put it off til tomorrow *morning* so I could take her.  But I told him I'm good, but I'm not THAT good that I can go and do that in the morning and then go to work and function normally.  Nope -- it's gotta be at night so he wrapped up mega early to come home to help me do this. 

But he also said "after not eating this morning she should be RAVENOUS tonight.  And the fact that she wasn't sealed it for him. 

This is never easy -- and how often have we all tried to help folks asking "when is the RIGHT time??" -- and even when you have all the wise counsel available, and you know your head isn't completely rattled with emotion ... it is STILL )@#($*#@ difficult. 

I'm not good with this sort of thing, I just wanted to say I hope you guys will be okay and to offer a ((hug))

 Callie and David...big hugs to you both, and I am crying with you...