I need some prayers for Mocha his health has been declining over the past several months he has been slowly losing weight and is no longer grooming himself as he should. Today I went over to my mom's to cut his nails and he has so many bad mats on his back where he isn't grooming himself like he should so after getting the mats out the best I could I gave his first ruff hair cut so it's shorter for him so he wont mat so bad. He use to love being loved on now he is lets you pet him when he wants petted. My mom says he still has his good days where he can run around the house playing with Eli and then there are his bad days. I talked my mom into switching him to moist food so it will be easier on him eat and maybe he will do better on it.
We have both decided that we are going to let him decide when it's his time to go and if he needs us to help him across the bridge. Car rides for him have always been stressful he panics, he drools, pants, and it's like a panic attack. It's just too much for him in my opinion to put him through a 40 min car to and back ride in his older condition to go to the vet knowing how he reacts in small spaces. Nor do I want to sedate him in his old age so right now we are thankful for every day he is alive and are going to make sure how every many days he has left are comfortable as can be. No we don't have a vet that is willing to come out to see him at home.
I already talked to Mocha few months ago and told him about the bridge that everything will be right to leave me that I will see him when it's time for us to meet again. I'm crrying as I write this he is my first animal that has ever touch my heart like this he picked me he has been my friend and my companion. I'm not ready to let him go I just hate this. I.. I..I just don't know how to put this in words.