Please pray for me - Prayers still needed - see last post

JoAnn - I'm sorry you're going thru all that and it's never, ever minor stuff when it starts weighing you down. I know that finding a new Dr. can be so difficult but I hope you'll consider asking your regular Dr. or friends for a referral. You deserve to feel better and if it means getting treatment, then do that for yourself. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers that both you and Prancer feel better soon.

JoAnn I am and I will -- an email is on its way to you.  The Alpha of ALL alphas never fails ... *hugs*

Thank you both so much - you brought tears to my eyes (in a good way).  Its so stupid - i KNOW all I have to do is pick up the phone and make the appt.  It doesn't even matter who the doctor is - I know which med works, I know the dosage I need, I know which times of year I need more (or less) ..... but yet I don't do it !  

This is also the time of year that Michelle started getting sick, in a few weeks it will be one year since she passed.  I've been thinking about her SO much.  I do love my crazy maniac Prancer, but .... well ... Michelle was part of me, we were one - there was an emotional bond;  I don't have that same connection with Prancer.   Michelle was so serious and SO cuddly ... Prancer is my little comedian, she's my fire dog.  I go nuts when Prancer gets sick - I'm so afraid of going through *that* again ....

At 8:49 eastern time I felt *something* - a little "lighten-ing" .... I knew that someone had me in their thoughts and prayers.   Then I logged on and saw your posts.   I thank you both so much.

Will keep praying ... let me know ANY way I can help.

 JoAnn, we are all here for you...{{{hugs}}}   The holidays bring on a lot of stress for many people, and you are not alone.  Call a doctor..you will feel so much better with the meds you know you need.

This truly is a difficult time for many of us and having lost Michelle around this time must make it all the more painful. I've found myself thinking of my dad almost every day lately. I listen to Christmas songs and every one makes me think of him in some way and I miss him so much. You're not alone JoAnne but if there's a way that you can be helped thru some necessary medication, then I hope you'll reach out for that. If it's just friends to share and lean on, then we're all here for that and I'm betting Prancer is more than happy to give you comforting doggie kisses

Prancer got sick again last night (3rd night in a row)  - loose stools with mucous and now blood.  We're going to the vet at 10am.  I'm beside myself right now.   I'm so afraid of losing her or her having some awful dreadful disease.   I'm a mess again today.    Please keep praying guys and I promise I'll call a doctor for myself on Monday.

I hope that it's nothing serious with Prancer but please let us know. I'm sending "feel better" vibes to both of you.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I know depression is a hard thing to deal with and many people don't understand it until you, yourself ,have been thru it..It is like a bottomless pit and you can't get out. Especially at this time of year,it's hard to get motivated when you're down.  Please know it is nothing to be ashamed of and we are all here for you.  Please call your doctor and get your meds----it can make all the differance in the world.  Praying for you.

Thanks gang  - I appreciate it so much.  "Bottomless pit" - I know the feeling .... for me its a dark cloud that I'm in the middle of, unable to see through.

Just spoke to my mom who had a routine exam and the doc things she has a blockage or may have already had a mild heart attack.  Please add her to the prayers.

As for Prancer - we're back from the vet and she thinks its bacterial.   The good news is that her leg is healing well and her range of motion is almost normal again.   Another week of crate rest and then we can start slowly returning to normal activity - Prancer will be able to run a little again.   A bright spot in the day / week / month.

I'm sorry you're feeling so down. We'll be praying for you your mom, and Prancer. Rupert sends nuzzles. (They really do make you feel better.)

Rupert nuzzles - now THATS therapy

and I honestly do feel the prayers working ...  clinical depression is one of those illnesses that really packs a punch.  there's no particular "thing / thought" that brings it on .... it just creeps up on you and then starts to consume you.   I feel more empowered today - its the prayers, I know it is.

Callie - thank you again for that email .... I'll never think of a flushing toilet the same way again.

And you're on my heart again this afternoon as you were last night on my way home from work. 

You were feeling my stress - I'll talk to you this weekend.