Posted : 9/26/2007 10:29:00 PM
Every single day I think of you and lift you up ... don't worry about the future or what you'll do -- that, too, will take care of itself. We will continue to lift you up and we will be here when you need someone. *hugs*
Posted : 9/27/2007 11:36:15 AM
I've been thinking of you both often and am relieved to know you are still coping with this with humor and love. Yesterday was the 4 year anniversary of a friend's passing at 41 of primary brain cancer . You description of Rich being "somewhere else" rings so familiar and I recall the materials the nurses and aids at the hospice had compiled for friends and family describing the process of detaching from this life. Our friend still checked back in with us right through that last day and let us know he was at peace. It seems as if Rich has found that same peace and that is something to be grateful for.
Thinking of you and as always, wishing you comfort and strength...
Posted : 9/27/2007 7:03:00 PM
Gee,,,just reading your posts...makes me wonder how you can be as strong as you are,,,and Rich also. What a wonderful gift! I pray for you both...for continued peace and strength!
Posted : 9/30/2007 5:19:22 PM
It took quite a bit of time for me to find my way onto this new format, but once I did, your thread was one of the few I looked for. I think of you and Rich often and am glad to hear that you both are facing each day with the grace and strength you've continually shown. You ARE inspiring; I don't know how I'd be coping with the caregiver role you're performing. Even with your professional expertise, caring for a terminally ill loved one has got to be the hardest thing. Sending on-going supportive wishes to you both.
Posted : 9/30/2007 11:10:40 PM
Thanks everyone for your prayers. I'm really scared tonight. Rich has been wide awake all day. We went to his mothers and he said goodbye. He looked at some things like he would never see them again, Yesterday was horrible. He has a profuse bleed that we could not stop. He ended up going by ambulance to the hospital. he Lost over 1200 ccs of blood, It did stop on its own in the ambulance so he was able to come home. Today he has been great. His pain has been easily controlled. he feels terrific but his BP is only 72/ 40. He hasn't taken any meds but his pain meds because the others may lower it more. The pain meds do too but... The Lasix we figured he could do without. he was away for a bit and when he refocused on this world he told me he wouldn't be haunting anyone saying there is just love and forgiveness where he is going, even for the man who killed my brother. Of course I knew that but for him to say that, I just know his time is close. I thought I was ready too but I guess I never will be. Thanks again for the prayers and good thoughts. You will never know how much they mean to both of us/
Julie
Posted : 10/1/2007 7:15:11 AM
Julie, I am lifting you up in prayer...
Posted : 10/1/2007 8:55:46 AM
I know it must give you some comfort to see Rich in such a peaceful state but I imagine that knowing what it might mean is beyond sad and frightening. I will continue to pray for peace and comfort for both of you in the days ahead.
Posted : 10/1/2007 10:25:09 AM
I'm really having a hard time trying to think of something comforting to say. I just can't imagine what you're going through. I think it's amazing how Rich's attitude has changed. I'm still thinking of you two and praying for you. Take care of yourself.
Posted : 10/1/2007 12:27:23 PM
Julie, I've kept tabs on your updates, but haven't posted because it's hard to know what to say. The peace you speak of, my son's father experienced that shortly before he passed. Your post brought that memory back very vividly. The little book that Hospice probably gave you described a lot of it very accurately. I am so very sorry you are going through this.
Posted : 10/1/2007 1:00:15 PM
Posted : 10/1/2007 10:18:19 PM
Keeping you in my prayers as I know this is so hard to go thru.
Posted : 10/1/2007 10:43:33 PM
Julie I`ve been watching the thread. I don`t know what to say that could make you feel better. I so much wish that I could. You and Rich are in my prayers every night.
Posted : 10/2/2007 6:50:45 AM
Just to let you know I am still thinking and praying for you both!
Posted : 10/2/2007 9:00:38 AM
Sending good relaxing vibes your way.
Stay strong, hon.
Posted : 10/2/2007 2:02:31 PM
You are both amazing, showing tremendous courage. I'll keep praying for you and Rich and sending cyber hugs.