Hi there,
I just wanted to ask for some prayers. My health is being really crappy here lately - more so than usual, and today has been really bad. I've finally tried to get out and do something I enjoy even though it has been really hard to find the energy and strength. Only problem is, I over did it.[&:] Not on purpose, but because my body is betraying me again. In the past 28 days I've had two seperate cycles within a 14 day time period, and it looks like a third is on its way (sorry for being so personal). The drain that this has put on my body has me sitting on the couch and wishing I didn't have anything that has to be done. I am even getting short of breath at times which means my anemia is probably rearing its ugly head again. I feel like I've been scruffed and alpha rolled to be truthful. *snort*
Keela and I have a commitment to another show the end of the month, and I would really love to not have to fight to enjoy myself. It has been so rewarding to see Keela blossoming since we started in the show ring, and our relationship has grown. It has been really special. I don't want to loose this.
The only problem is that with the health problems, come the mental problems again. I hate that the past six years have been basically wasted. Every time I try to get out of the doldrums and not let my health keep me down, I get pushed down even further than I was to begin with. It's just so hard to deal with mentally, and right now is one of those times. It has been nice having people to talk to and do things with that share a common interest like conformation. I am afraid I am going to loose something else that is enjoyable once again.
I just need some prayers and good wishes. I know so many of us on this board deal with major health problems on a daily basis, and I feel like you understand where I am coming from. Tomorrow will be better, but right now sucks!
Amy
edit: because my brain doesn't work straight to type a comprehensive sentence sometimes!