Most of us have a branch of the family that is kinda "uncomfortable" for everyone else & mine is no exception. My cousins on that side are all much younger than I am and most of them have led a sad, dissolute life of drugs and living on welfare. Given the history of that side of the family it's not surprising at all.
My cousin was 42 -- he had a massive heart attack Thursday night and went into a coma and died last night. My uncle has known a lot of loss -- too much. But given the pre-disposition of the family history it was predictable.
But just plain sad. Churched? Oh yes. But no real "light" there if that makes sense to anyone. I'm not close to that uncle -- but I just feel this pervading sense of sadness. Such a waste.
I'd love to be able to say "pray for it to be ok" but it won't. But I would dearly love for that part of the family to be able to see some sense and drag themselves out of the mire. At least one of them?
I remember holding this cousin when he was a baby and loving to play with him and care for him. But if it makes *me* this sad, then I have to have compassion for this uncle -- he's buried his parents and a brother, and two wives and now a son. Wow ... just so very sad. So I guess prayers for comfort and ... change?
Not even sure why I posted other than the fact it's made *me* feel so incredibly sad at a time that should show new birth, and beginnings.