miranadobe
Posted : 6/7/2012 11:43:24 AM
(I don't expect a response, I just need a place to express my sadness, so thank you for allowing me to do that here.)
After a particularly good cry while sitting at work yesterday, I told myself "I'm
done crying for the day" and did well until I got into the house last night and
saw the places she was supposed to be. I sat there and explained it to Macie and Gracie last night. Macie ignored me. Gracie listened intently and sat down in her tight little sit she does when she wants my attention... maybe she was trying to show she was paying attention to me. I am saddest of all that the last two days, Sun & Mon, she was supposed to come home Sun afternoon - vet called and said come get her, even though they were closed. We had our charity event, so it would be a little bit until her owner could drive back to get her. Then a few hours later got the call that she'd spiked a fever and would be staying. Monday morning it was fluid in her lungs, a first ever in all these months, but her owner thought she would be well and ended up not going to visit her. I called after I got off work Mon, just as they were closing, to see if Cora could use a visit from me. The vet said she didn't know if it would help or not, but that her owner should plan to visit. I feel so sad that Cora didn't have her mom on Sun & Mon. I cry, fearing she thought Mom was coming to get her and when it didn't happen, did she give up? Or did she keep fighting? I think she kept fighting because that's who she was. I have to keep thinking that.
Ok, no more tears after I get done w/my lunch hour.