GratefulDawg
Posted : 1/14/2009 3:49:52 PM
I don't blame you for avoiding the threads. In fact the reason I didn't contact you by PM last month was that I just didn't want to stir up the memories for you. Believe me.. I have weighted everything in the most thoughtful way I know how. I had a vet tell me on Christmas Eve to euthanize my dog. But seeing she was in no pain and feeling that I hadn't given the drugs time to kick in, I opted for the 2nd Transfusion.
Every other vet except the one I spoke of has not given me any sign that treating Clops is wrong. My med student and her teacher were very optimistic about a recovery. But I know things can go wrong at any time.
You did the best you could do at the time. Reading your thread now - it is easy to pick a point and say it should have ended there. But with the ups and downs how do you know for sure when? Its not like other things where it is a painful downward slope with no hope at all. This disease is cruel in that it offers hope and then snatches it away again.
Its been since Christmas Eve since I've been at a Decision day. Its been pretty positive since then. Today she is not her normal self but she seems very happy and not in any pain. I keep wondering how much of her attitude today is because of her anemia and how much is just feeling however cyclosporine makes you feel.. or some combination of the two.
I will certainly add you to my favorites and contact you by PM from now on. I just want you to know that your experience has given me a lot of information and I am sure other people too. Thats why I'm documenting here as you did.. in hopes that what Cyclops is going through and the decisions (medical and financial) that I'm making might help others make decisions too.