Our girl is nine, she will be 10 in Oct. SHe has had arthritis for almost 7 years, but well controlled. She had about a flare-up once a year. Last fall she started dragging the end of her front paw, the vet put her on steriods, and she did horribly on them. She wet the bed anytime she fell aslepp and soon was so mortified she refused to come inside. We kept her in her basement kennel until we could get them out of her system. She went into a bad depression after that and stayed that way for the rest of 2 months. SHe wouldn't get out of bed, didn't want to eat or do anything. We started fixing her food up to where she would eat, and taking her for walks through the field to the woods. Eventually I thought it was time to put her to sleep, and the next day she started to pick back up and within a week she was back. She kept the dragging of the front of her paw, but she incorporated it and was happy until a couple weeks ago.
She got up one day and wasn't using her front leg at all. She had already lost all the muscle in her leg and shoulder, I figured from not using it. We took her to a vet who used to work in our vets office, because our vet wasn't really giving us anything except arthritis and it seems to be somewhat neurological. Well, it turns out she has a myelin sheath tumor between her spine and shoulder. She lost all proprioception in her leg and muscle due to nerve interference. The tumor will continue around and affect the back leg same side next, but that could be up to 18 months. In the meantime, she doesn't use the front leg. It turns under and she doesn't seem to notice. She rarely trips over it, but when she tries to put weight down on it, a lot of times it is turned under and she puts weight down on the turned under ankle.
We decided a few days after the vet that we would put her to sleep. But as I watched her over the next couple days, I realized that she was still in really good spirits. So we decided to wait and she how she did. Well, it's like having 2 different dogs. When she is laying around, which is the majority of the time, she is happy, will wag her tail, want petted, and will roll around on the floor and play with you for a long time. Buit when it comes time to go out, she doesn't want to go. We made her a ramp and she will hang her head before she even gets outside, and then want to stay on the porch, and when she does get down, it usually is for her to go right at the end of the ramp and back in , or go lay under the tree. She sometimes hops around a little, but rarely.
She likes to come into the basement where we are building an office, and lays there watching us, occassionally searching the basement for lost pieces of the other dog's food. Her great love was to go out patroling in the front yard, or lay on the front porch and watch the world go by, or take walks to the woods. Now she never asks and cannot even be convinced to do it. Last night I took her out and convinced her to come to the front yard, and she was unhappy when she got there, and it was a chore for her to get back to the house. It made me feel physically sick to watch her make her way back that short distance.
Later, laying on her bed in front of the couch, she is as happy as can be again. I oscillate between thinking that I should put her to sleep and then not. I wonder what she thinks. Is she just stoic enough to keep her spirits up, or is she happy just being loved on without really doing much but going out to relieve herself and moving from one bed to another. I don't want to wait for the piont when she can't get up anymore, or is in pain from hopping all her 107 pounds around on 3 legs if her arthritis flares up again.
I know no one can make the decision for us, I guess I just wanted to hear what other people who understand where I am think about what they think dogs think about situations like this. I don't want to take life away from her if she isn't in pain and is happy, but I wonder if she is suffering even if she isn't in pain by not being able to get around well anymore. I want what is the best for her, not keeping her here because I want her to be. Any thoughts here? Julie