tacran
Posted : 8/5/2008 12:39:35 AM
Oh Lori, I've been so rarely on the forum in a month or two, and I never visit the health section . . . . I had NO idea you were dealing with this!! I even missed the Lyme disease issue. I just re-read all the posts here and I think I aged a year going through the emotions just READING all of them ---- I can only imagine what you were going through each day, and I'm so sorry I didn't offer support as you were facing it. My heart goes out to you and Willow, and I'm sending plenty of hugs and calming thoughts now that things seem to be on a stabilizing path.
There were so many posts from you and others that I was saying outloud, "Yes! I agree!" Everything you said about thinking no vet can totally have 100% committment to our pets like we do - that's how I feel. I never found a vet that I truly felt looked at the complete big picture based on what I told them regarding Tonka's history. It annoyed me to have to remind them of things or bring up suggestions based on my own research (God bless this forum for leading me in good directions back then!).
Becca's comments about a human doctor giving us the "permission" to let some of the responsibility and worry go were so perfectly explained -- I couldn't agree more. But, I guess the average vet would be a bit more "distanced" from a pet. If someone like us were to be a vet, we'd be a basket case all the time!
I don't have any advice regarding her diagnosis - I've learned a lot reading these posts. However, I'm so glad the ultrasound came back clear, and it sounds like the prednisone is helping. I'm sure you'll be able to relieve some of its risks with the other suggestions from Callie and everyone.
My two stories about pred confirm what others have said. First, my mother had to take it for a while, and she was stunned by the energy (or "human zoomies";) it gave her. She said, "I can't stop cleaning my house! It's never been this spotless! It's more powerful than 100 cups of coffee!" Secondly, Tonka had one shot of it once (it was some kind of steroid, anyway) after a bee sting. The next day he began to drink almost constantly and he lost control of his bladder --- he'd get up and I'd find puddles of urine. I was sure his kidneys failed from ONE shot. It took a few days for it to clear up. Yes, I'm a catastrophic thinker, so I assumed the worst. I'm also someone who has trouble controlling anticipatory grief, so I'm completely on the same page with you regarding the emotions you've been describing in this whole thread.
I've rambled on long enough -- please give Willow a big hug (or several!), and one for you, too. Again, I'm so sorry I didn't see this sooner. I will hold you both in my heart and make a point to watch for updates. And I'll PM you soon to catch up on other things. Sending lots of good vibes across the miles!