We need serious help.....

    • Gold Top Dog
    we're so sorry....
    she was a beautiful girl....
    Talus sends a big hug and we're saying prayers...
    • Gold Top Dog
    Im very sorry for your loss.  My Kayla died almost two months ago very quickly and unexpectedly and that is also how I found this place and I have not left.  I am still dealing with grief every single day, and nor do I know how to do it.  Just yesterday I was so angry.  I was dusting my night stand and Kaylas ashs are there and I had to move them then replace them and I suddenly filled up with this rage that surprised me and I just wanted to scream!  I was so mad that thats what is the reality now... shes a box.  This is not the right way to think of things I know but the point is that your body and mind will grieve how it will.  I still sleep with my angels ashs every night and cry every day. 

    It doesnt sound like your baby died of pancreatitis, as thats what my Kayla died of.  I hope your necropsy can provide you with some answers I know you will feel better just knowing what happened.  The decision to bury or creamate your baby is soley yours.  I didnt even think about burying my Kayla I just wanted her back with me asap to hold her and have her near, and knowing when I move she will still be by my side.  It truly is a personal decision and everyone has their own reasons and thoughts.  Do what feels best for you guys.

    You have all of us here who love our pets to an extent that a lot of others do not understand.  I did not know about the Rainbow Bridge before I came here but it is a beautiful thought and I choose to believe that I will meet my Kayla after I die and I choose to believe she has a wonderful place where shes waiting for me, aside from the fact that I do believe she is still with me.

    You have us here for you to grieve with you and help you through in any way we can.  Welcome to the forum.  Hugs to you and your husband.

    My Kayla will show your Daisy around at the Bridge, and know your baby has many of our angels to keep her company while she waits for you.

    • Bronze
    my dog went through through this same thing, hes a small dog and he ate a bird he had to be hooked up to IV and he was puking blood, so it couldve have been something he ate i will have to remember what the doctor said the illness or poisoning name is called but i am very sorry for your loss as i lost my dog too
    • Gold Top Dog
    My heart aches for you and your family. Daisy blessed you and you blessed her. Hold on to the happiness you shared. Know she is in no pain and will wait for you at the bridge. My hugs and prayers to help you get through this time of grief and pain.
    • Gold Top Dog
    She was so beautiful, I am so sorry about her passing.  Please keep us posted.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I am sorry about Kayla, too and everyone's beloved pet who has passed.  My Romeo, is 8 yrs old have had him for two years now, and just the thought of not seeing his mischiveous eyes every mornning makes me loose it and I know the day will come and I am just so happy to know there will be a place where I can say how I feel about him and won't be judged for loving him the way I do.
     
    The following is one of my favorite poems:
     
    A Living Love

    If you ever love an animal, there are three days
    in your life you
    will always remember . . .

    The first is a day, blessed with happiness, when
    you bring home
    your young new friend. You may have spent weeks
    deciding on a
    breed. You may have asked numerous opinions of
    many vets, or done
    long research in finding a breeder. Or, perhaps
    in a fleeting
    moment, you may have just chosen that silly
    looking
    mutt in a shelter -- simply because something in
    its eyes reached
    your heart. But when you bring that chosen pet
    home, and watch it
    explore, and claim its special place in your hall
    or front room --
    and when you feel it brush gainst you for the
    first time -- it
    instills a feeling of pure love you will carry
    with you through the
    many years to come.

    The second day will occur eight or nine or ten
    years later. It will
    be a day like any other. Routine and
    unexceptional. But, for a
    surprising instant, you will look at your
    longtime friend and see
    age where you once saw youth. You will see slow
    deliberate steps
    where you once saw energy. And you will see sleep
    when you once saw
    activity. So you will begin to adjust your
    friend's diet -- and you
    may add a pill or two to her food. And you may
    feel a growing fear
    deep within yourself, which bodes of a coming
    emptiness.
    And you will feel this uneasy feeling, on and
    off, until the third
    day finally arrives...... And on this day -- if
    your friend and
    whatever higher being you believe inhave not
    decided for you, then
    you will be faced with making a decision of your
    own -- on behalf
    of your lifelong friend, and with the guidance of
    your own
    deepest Spirit. But whichever way your friend
    eventually leaves you -
    - you will feel as alone as a single star in the
    dark night. If
    you are wise, you will let the tears flow as
    freely and as often as
    they must. And if you are typical, you will find
    that not many in
    your circle of family or friends will be able to
    understand your
    grief, or comfort you. But if you are true to the
    love of the pet
    you cherished through the many joy-filled years,
    you may find that a
    soul -- a bit smaller in size than your own --
    seems to walk with
    you, at times, during the lonely days to come.
    And at moments when
    you least expect anything out of the ordinary to
    happen, you may
    feel something brush against your leg --very,
    very lightly. And
    looking down at the place where your dear,
    perhaps dearest, friend
    used to lie -- you will remember those three
    significant days. The
    memory will most likely to be painful, and leave
    an ache in your
    heart. As time passes the ache will come and go
    as if it has a
    life of its own. You will both reject it and
    embrace it, and it may
    confuse you. If you reject it,it will depress
    you. If you embrace
    it, it will deepen you. Either way, it will still
    be an ache.

    But there will be, I assure you, a fourth day
    when ..............
    along with the memory of your pet -- and piercing
    through the
    heaviness in your heart -- there will come a
    realization that
    belongs only to you. It will be as unique and
    strong as our
    relationship with each animal we have loved, and
    lost. This
    realization takes the form of a Living Love --
    like the heavenly
    scent of a rose that remains after the petals
    have wilted, this
    Love will remain and grow -- and be there for us
    to remember. It is
    a love we have earned. It is the legacy our pets
    leave us when they
    go. And it is a gift we may keep with us as long
    as we live. It is
    a Love which is ours alone. And until we
    ourselves leave, perhaps
    to join our Beloved Pets -- it is a Love we will
    always possess.
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
      No matter how little money and how few possessions you own, having a
    dog makes you rich...........Louis Sabin
       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    • Gold Top Dog
    Thank you all. Olinda, Jennie and Willow , thank you for the poems they are beautiful. To everyone else thanks for the support, it's very much appreciated. To kayla's mom, i do know your Kayla will show her around and let her know how to check up on us.....Thank you also.
     
    Well i called the vet this morning and they don't start getting "faxes" back from the lab until 11:30. They promised me that as soon as Daisy's comes trhough that the doctor will call me himself. So it's 11:20 here i have 10 minutes before i begin to get really anxious and wait. As soon as i get results my husband will get a call from me and then i'll come back here to let you guys know.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  I just came back from the Vet this morning because my furbaby wasn't feeling well and reading your story just made me so sad.  I am sending my thoughts and prayers to you and your family.  Daisy was lucky to have you in her life.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I'm so sorry you've experienced such a heartbreaking loss.  I can't imagine the pain of losing your furbaby in a matter of hours, and not to know why.  We lost our precious boy in January without knowing the root cause of his decline, but we had a few weeks to prepare.  Neither situation is easier than the other - the outcome is the same:  coming home without your best friend and having to deal with life without him or her.  I'm able to get through the routine of my day without anyone around me thinking there's anything wrong, but in no way am I the same person.  I still have days (and more often, nights) where I'm overwhelmed with grief.  I try to comfort myself with thoughts that we'll be with our boy again some day and that he's happy where he is now, with friends who left before him, and new friends that join him at the Bridge.  I know remembering all the good years is supposed to help, but mostly it just makes me miss him more.  As everyone has said, you will find lots of us here who can relate to the emotions you're wrestling with now.  I found more comfort and sympathetic "ears" here than I did among all but just a few of my "local" people.
     
    I hope you find out what caused Daisy's death.  It won't bring her back, but it can help relieve the agony of the unknown.  Sometimes we wish we had ordered a necropsy so we'd confirm what our dog had, but we weren't able to make that decision at the time - we just wanted his ashes back with us as soon as possible.
     
    My heart goes out to you and your household.  Daisy was a sweet looking dog - I'm sure she'll find lots of other special friends (big and small) at the Bridge.  My dog was very large (a Bullmastiff), but he had a real soft spot for tiny female dogs, so I'll ask him to look for her.  He likes to sit sentry, watching over the other dogs around him.  Take care.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I am supposed to be studying for a Gross Anatomy final day after tomorrow, and after reading all the posts, I have done nothing but cry.  I lost my husband to a drunk driver 5 years ago, I saw it happened right before my eyes, my husband died in my arms, and at the same time from the shock I had a miscarriage; a year later Romeo came into my life and he has been able to do what no shrink was able to, I have learned to live again and to the fullest, I loved my husband deeply and Romeo has helped me thru the pain.  I know is going to be hard for he when he goes, but I know he will be with my Michael and both will keep an eye on me. That is why I am the way I am with him, I want Romeo to know, to feel every day that although he was once abused he is now loved and respected more than anything in the world.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I'm so very sorry for your loss.  I know now, how suddenly life can slip away when we almost lost our Holly during a heart attack last month.
     
    What a beautiful dog she was.  Take care
    • Gold Top Dog
    I too had my little kitty, Niko, cremated when she had to be PTS from complications with Felv... I plan to bury her ashes in one of my house plants so that no matter where I move too, she will be with me.  I'm so sorry for your loss.  I know what it's like to lose a beloved pet/friend....  Daisy is running free with Maggie too... [sm=angel.gif]
    • Gold Top Dog
    Daisy was a beautiful little girl.  May the many wonderful memories you have of her carry you through this most difficult time.  Sending hugs and prayers your way. Christi
    • Gold Top Dog
    Thank you, i'm actually feeling a little better today. I haven't broke down yet. I am really frustrated though because i have not received a phone call back from the vet's with the results of her blood tests. I already called today and they said they were in but that "the doctor was in surgery" so i would be getting a call from him after lunch. Yeah this was about  3 hours ago! If they don't call me again today i'm just going to show up tomorrow morning...as soon as they open.
    • Gold Top Dog
    I have been wondering, thanks for the update!  I cant believe they are blowing you off like that!!   I know how anxious you must be to find out some anwsers, I would just go there like you said and MAKE them talk to you.  Good luck, let us know!