Euthanized my dog...

I had to euthanize my dog Maya. We had her for 10 years. We did what we could for her pain, that we could afford finicial but it didn't seem to help her a whole lot. We couldn't afford her ashes back and I feel guilty that I couldn't afford her ashes back at that time. I was there the whole time crying. I really hope that didn't scare her any that I was laying next to her on the floor at the vets crying while talking to her. The tech and a couple of others tried to do the butterly IV but they couldn't get a vein because her skin was so thick. Her blood pressure was really low and couldn't get a vein because of it. I can't help to wonder when the tech gave her the actual medicine to euthanize her if she actually felt that needle go into her chest. They gave her a sedative, so because of that I'm really hoping they didn't.