akyramoto82
Posted : 11/19/2009 8:17:43 PM
Akyra crossed Rainbow Bridge today @ 1:54pm today. I held her in my arms, I tried to be strong for her, but I couldn't stop crying. I loved her so much. she passed very quickly, the vet even said that she was ready to go. I spent the last two days with her, laying on the floor, talking, crying, telling her how much I loved her. i was so sad that there wasn't any 'good days' before the end. I wished I could've played frisbee with her one more time. It reminds me of how much pain she was in, she NEVER would lay around ALL day like she did these last couple days, it was so hard when she was trying to hide from us. She was trying so hard to stay here with me. I can't believe how fast this happened, I still have a hard time realizing she's not here with me anymore. Its still so hard to process that she was here and now she's gone. I didn't want to let her get any worse, she was wasting away and she wasn't Akyra anymore. She was barely existing. I'm happy that she isn't in pain anymore, I'm happy that she's finally at peace and comfortable. I miss her so much already.
She was the best dog I've ever met, so beautiful, smart, athletic and comical. She was such a leader with all the other dogs, they all wanted to know 'what game' they were supposed to be playing. Everyone who met her adored her, she stole your heart instantly. I remember how many times we would go for car rides, people would see her and smile. I think about all the things that I've done in my life because of her, we went through some big changes together in such little time. I'm so lucky that she chose me.
I'll miss the way she would stay next tot he bed and wait for me to get up, all the other dogs would go outside, but she would always wait for me. She was my shadow, she would follow me all over the property, and the only dog I trusted 100% around the chickens and donkeys. She always made me feel better no matter what was happening in my life, she was always my rock. Some part of me thinks maybe I didn't 'need' her anymore, like I had grown strong enough that it was ok for her to go. I've thought alot of things, i dont know when I'll stop grieving, i dont really care right now, all i know is that i love and miss her.
I'm thankful my best friend was with me the whole time to help me through, she loved Akyra as much as I did. she has had many animals and has had to help many of them pass, I've never dealt with anything like this in my whole life. It was so hard. just like everyone told me. I kept wishing in my head that it was a dream and it was time to wake up. its just too fast. i loved her so much.
its so hard to post a picture of her, but i want everyone to see her, i want her to be remembered.
