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I am so very sorry for your loss. I know nothing I can say can make the pain any easier. Cole was very lucky to have you in his life.

Thank you all for your thoughtful words and prayers. It means alot to me that there is  support outside of my family. I know in my heart that we did the right thing but you always question yourself when it is someone so close to you. Today is better. i haven't cried that much except when i tell others about him. i have his picture on my phone that I see every time I open my cell phone. I miss him dearly. It is still weird not to hear his nails clicking on the tile or that big wet tongue licking every inch of my arm while i am on the computer. But he had a great life and i know that for sure. he was our heart and our baby and always will be. Thanks for the love it is really helping.  

I don't know how I missed your post!  I'm so very sorry to hear about your baby.  Your words brought back so many memories of our last moments with Tonka and the agonizing pain I suffered for several days immediately after he left us (the pain now is still raw, but at least it isn't quite as debilitating as it was then). 
 
My heart goes out to you, your husband, and your fur-family.  Nothing you described sounds abnormal to me - it was all very similar to how I felt and behaved.  Like your DH, mine hadn't shown that much emotion any other time in our 15+ years together.  Few people understand the grief we feel.  To us, we've lost our only son, our pride and joy.  He was a part of every minute of our lives; we considered him in every decision we made. 
 
You were so fortunate to have your final moments together in the comfort of your home, with your other babies around Cole.  Part of the images that kept playing over in my head was having to walk out of that clinic, leaving Tonka's body in that sterile room.  Trying to sleep was awful - every second of that night was burned in my mind's eye. 
 
Take care, and wrap yourself in the support of people here.  I wish you strength as you face each day and all the "little losses" (not calling his name when you come home, no longer getting his food dish, putting away certain toys or blankets, etc.).  Sending you lots of empathy and hugs.
 
Run free, Cole -- watch over your Mom and Dad as they adjust to life without you.

awalker102, I missed this post as well. I am so very very sorry to hear of your loss. some people think me to be very cruel,but I think I have taken the loss of one of my dogs more than any human in my life...isn't that just horrible?! I don't know. I guess I underestimate animals and feel they don't know what is going on where humans so...........so I think.  I just so hate every time I have had to put one of my Sheltie's down and that pain of standing there bawling beside my furry friend's lifeless body...wondering if I did the right thing and if I did it too soon or not soon enough.  I so feel for you and hope you are feeling much better. I know you miss your furry companion, but know you ended unneedless suffering.  Take care and hugs.

Today I received Cole's remains and his cremation certificate. His ashes were in a box inside of a black velvet box that said "We will meet again at Rainbow Bridge". I started crying again and now as I write this. I didn't realize it was going to be hard to get his remains back but it is also comforting to know he is still here in a sense. I miss him so much. After the first few days past I am doing much better. My touch times are when we go to bed since I can't tuck him in anymore and sometimes when I called the dogs in I have to think before I speak so I don't call him. The vet gave us the Rainbow Bridge poem and the Paw Prints poem. She also took a foot print of Cole before they cremated him and gave it to us. It was the sweetest gesture becuase I never got around to doing it myself. Thanks again for your thoughts and prayers.

i definatly know how you feel..prayers with you in this time of loss..

I know intensely how you feel about losing Cole, We just let O'shota go on saturday so it is still very painful . I understand about how you hope you gave them enough time and did not cause them to suffer too long , it is so hard to accept when the time is right to let your friend go, but they let you know when they know it is time . When we both saw and interpreted the look from O'shota as a plea to let her go , that she was through with the fight , we obeyed her wish as soon as it was possible to . It hurts and will every time you go through this loss again with another pet friend and you will still make many more pet friends in spite of the hurt at the end of this special friendship . Rainbow bridge helps me so much in hoping to be reuinited with all of my past pets, I will be covered in doggy kiss's and cat purrs that I will be as giddy as a five year old in a pet store .

That's a wonderful thing for your vet to do...
I would never have thought of it...
We hope you are okay & we're thinking of you...