Good bye Milo...

Rainbow Bridge

The Rainbow Bridge is the theme of a work of poetic prose written some time between 1980 and 1992, whose original creator is unknown. The theme is of an other-worldly place to which a pet goes upon its death, eventually to be reunited with its owner.
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    Good bye Milo...

    Our 4 year old Jack Russlle/Rat terrier mix Milo crossed the rainbow bridge last Wednesday 3/30, at age of 4.... We rescued him from the local shelter and we had him only for 10 months.. He was dignossed AIHA back in January, he had been fighting over this nasty desies for almost 3 months... He just had spleen removal and stone removal from stomach on 3/24 and he was doing so well after he came back home that weekend, 3/26. Everybody thought he would recover perfectly. He was doing so well, he ate good, barked and acted like a little puppy. Nobody thought he would be gone so quickly and unexpectly.
    I often wonder if I did something wrong... I shouldn't let him go up and down steps or let him eat this and that.... I often wonder if my decision of surgey was the right decision.... No matter how much I wonder how I have done.... he won't be coming back... he is gone forever... physically anyway....

    I miss him so much and I am having hard time to fall asleep at night. I am so used to have him and snuggle together till I fell asleep..... I am sure I get enough hour of sleep but I feel like I haven't slept at all. I feel no motivation for anything. We had another dog before Milo but we were prepared for his death because of his age and his illness -cancer. I wasn't ready for Milo at all....maybe that's why his death hit me so hard....

    I am looking for another dog to rescue or adopt... I can not live like this any longer... it's been only 4 days but my house looks like bumb dropped but still i don't feel any motivation.... his kennel is still here and his dishes are here... dogs foods... treats... toys.... every corner of house reminds of him... and I can not stop thinking of him. Not many people understands how I feel... I know he was a dog... family pet... but he was a part of my family.... to me anyway..... I feel like I lost my baby.  My husband and kids already moved on... but I am stuck here and still crying about his sudden death.... I might be able to move on when his ash comes back to me....

    Thank you for listening....

     

    Meg

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    Meg, I am so sorry to hear about Milo. Know you did everything you could for Milo--AIHA/IMHA is such a hard, awful disease. And, I know how you feel about the empty feeling. There is a dog waiting for you to rescue/adopt as soon as you're ready. (((hugs)))

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    Meg, "just a dog" isn't something anyone here can relate to.  They ARE family members and we love them as such, and we hurt and we grieve when they go to the Rainbow Bridge.

    You can second guess all you will, but you are right that it doesn't change anything.  It just makes your pain worse.  Know that in the 10 months that Milo was with you, he knew LOVE, he knew care, and he knew being cherished.  YOU gave that to him.  And he'll be waiting for you, when your time comes, at the Bridge.  Hugs to you, and run free Milo.

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    Thank you Kate & Glenda... It just hurts... inside out of me... the pain I am feeling is indiscribable... He always followed me anywhere I went.. even in the bathroom... he made sure I went to bathroom, nowhere else. He didn't like me gone from his sight... he always watched me and made sure he knew where I was at... as long as he could see me, he was fine with it....
    The day he passed away, I knew something wrong as soon as I came home from work, he didn't welcome me like he did a day before.... and he threw up with clod of blood.... but I still believed he would be fine then. I didn't give up on him..... He died 2 hours later at the vet..... I disbelieved what the vet told us. I didn't want to believe he was gone.
    It still hurts talking about him..... hurts really bad.....

    I am sleeping with stuffed animal - about Milo's size. It helps a little but still I have hard time to sleep.... :(
    I'm glad I found this page - I usually hang out at AIHA page and one of girls there told me about this page.....

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    Ditto to what Glenda said--the folks here get it! I bet my Frisby was waiting to greet Milo--she knew all about IMHA and all the drugs and treatments and how crummy it all is. She's been at the Bridge since September, so she'll show him around. 

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    Ditto to what Glenda said--the folks here get it! I bet my Frisby was waiting to greet Milo--she knew all about IMHA and all the drugs and treatments and how crummy it all is. She's been at the Bridge since September, so she'll show him around. 

    Sorry for your loss, Kate.. I bet lots of fur friends were waiting for Milo to come.... and play.... our 1st dog was prob. waiting for him too... My husband told me that Milo was sitting by Kuma (1st dog)'s grave ealier that day he passed away. He usually didn't go near by because I told him not to (lol) but that day, he sat right next to it.... My husband was working in the shed and usually Milo was going in with him but not that day... waited outside of the shed... maybe he was talking to Kuma and telling he was on the way to the rainbow bridge.....He also picked the perfect day - my husband had off that day so he had a chance to spend time together by themselves. Like I said he was my shadow... so I usually spent alot of time with him... that day we didn't have any plans, no after school activities for kids, so we were all home... and he couldn't pick more perfect time than that time... right after I got home from work.... he waited for me to come home.... I called twice that day and asked husband how he was doing, I called 15 minutes before I got home too... Milo was doing fine then.... I knew he was smart but he was really smart boy... and he really cared about us... more than we thought.... oh I miss him so much.

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     Meg I'm so sorry for your loss. I also ditto what Glenda said. They are a part of our family and have shared a big part of our hearts and so it is a big loss when we lose them. Thoughts to you Meg and run free Milo.

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    Meg, I told you everyone here would understand. The folks on this forum *are* different.  We all see our dogs as "family" ... but as I said, everyone grieves a bit differently.  Frisby PI also had IMHA.  It's a horrible disease --

    There's a dog out there who needs you ... not to replace Milo but simply to give you love.  Because each dog is very different.

    One of the first things you have to do is simply get back into your own routine.  There is peace to be found there.  I know I can't handle seeing their stuff out all over the place -- and since Billy was sick a long time I've got a lot of things here to deal with but I take care of them bit by bit.  It's not easy but I know it's something I have to do.

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    Thanks nymaureen and Callie..

    I know I have to get back into my "old" routine... I have to get used to this old but "new" routine without Milo....
    I am thinking of doing "housecleaning" throughout this week - little by little each day..... Our son's birthday is coming pretty soon and he wants to do birthday party at home... it gives the "reason" to motivate myself to do something... it prob, will help me get moving....
    I better pack Milo stuff in the box.. so I can open them up whenever I want to "see" him...
    Our kids asked me making Tshirt for memory of Milo... so I will do that too... it will be a while but i will... I want to remember him when he was healthy......

     

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    Hugs for you, I feel your  pain.  Milo is now at the bridge with all our little ones who we have had to leave go.

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    Meg, I'm so sorry to hear of Milo's passing.  He WAS a part of your family.  Don't let anyone convince you otherwise.  All our four legged, furry housemates are family.

    We lost a cat a while ago. Hit my partner very hard.  Rufus was her heart cat.  I know she was comforted when we were able to bring his ashes home. I hope you find a little peace when Milo comes back home.

    Run free and FAST Milo !

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    Oh Meg, I do know how painful it is to lose a dog like Milo.  There is really nothing like the love of a dog like him and even though it seems you'll never move past this part, you will.  We're here to support you and to cry with you and to hold you up when you feel down.   Give yourself some time to heal.  (((((hugs)))))

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    I can't say anymore than what everyone here has said already.  Just know that I understand and care.  Take it a day at a time, and also know that Milo loves you still.  Run free Milo.  Sending you, Meg, vibes for peace and strength.

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    Oh dear.  Meg, I can't say what's been said here already any better. I just want to hug you until the pain goes away.  I have a teddybear that is there for me when low times hit.  Do what you need to to feel better.  We have all been there & know your pain.  It WILL pass and you will be able to think of Milo with a smile on your face & laugh at his antics. 

    Run free & fast Milo. 

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    I'm so sorry for your loss. Not everyone can understand the pain and emptiness that is felt when one loses a beloved pet but many of us do. It hurts deeply but it does get better with time. I'm so glad that you found your way here and I hope you'll stick around.

    Run free Milo