Dear Jasmine,
Today marks 30 days without you in our lives. I still weep for you. I still look at the backdoor to see if you are watching me as I work in the flower gardens. I have to stop myself from asking if you want to 'go' when we run an errand. I am still getting up at 5:30 AM to feed you and checking the clock to see if it's close to 2:00 PM yet. I still have not been able to go for our evening walk-it's just too hard to do this without you. I still look for you when we go to bed. I am keeping my promise that I made to you. Our letter to the FDA about the drug that killed you is ready to mail. Our letter to the DVM board is going then also. The guilt I still have for giving you that first dose of ProIn weighs heavy on my heart. I am so sorry I made you take it but I trusted the Vet and thought it was what you needed. I will never begin to forgive myself. I hope you have forgiven me for what I had to do Sept 4, 2009. You were just so sick. You looked so unhappy. You had not eaten anything for 3 days. Not chicken, not steak, nothing. You would not even drink water when I offered it to you. Hope it's OK that I gave your food and cookies to a 'no kill' shelter. I have kept your toys and favorite blanket. We just miss you so much Jas. You became my child when the other 2 legged children left home. Please take care my baby girl and I hope you have found Hambone, Shakes and Budley at The Rainbow Bridge. Play, eat, run and chase lizards for us. I also hope that you see the candle I light for you every Monday night.
We will always love you and miss you and you will be in my heart for eternity.
Love,
Mom