I didn't know there was a place to share my feelings.
Gizmo was my16 year old Shih Tsu. We had to put him to sleep this past August. He was my puppy and my friend. He grew up with my daughter and his job was to wake her for school. I had a few medical problems with him throught the years but one of the most amusing ones (if you can say that) was the night he jumped for my husband's sandwich and hit his head on the coffee table and knocked himself out. It was scary then, but he would do stuff like this. We have a bay window and I can still see him sitting in the window waiting for us to come home. Well this summer he had a hard time walking and it slowly got worse until he couldn't stand up. He would lay on a pillow and just cry. The vet gave him shots etc to make him comfortable. I came home, he was with my husband and he could no longer control himself and he pooped where he lay. There was blood in it and I took that as a sign. My husband and I took him (my daughter couldn't do it) to the vet., my husband couldn't stay in the room, so I held him and told him how much I loved him. All I can remember is his eyes after he was gone and how I couldn't leave him. The vet was great and told me to take all the time I needed.
Well in Oct. I went to just look at puppies and came home with my little girl Madison also a Shih Tsu. But Gizzy boy as he was called will always be in my heart. As my tears still fall as a write this.
thanks