tacran
Posted : 4/21/2006 11:53:34 PM
Emily, I don't think it's weird that you're sleeping with Boss' collar. I slept with Tonka's blanket close to my chest for weeks. I finally washed it, but it's still on top of my comforter and near me each night. As for the clothes I was wearing the night we had to say goodbye, they are still folded in a little pile in our bedroom, along with the pillowcase from his pillow. I may never wash them. It was a few weeks before we put his bowls and bed away, but his crate and his toy basket are still in the front room. I'm not ready to move them yet.
I understand your dilemma about burying vs. cremating. It's unlikely we'll stay in the house forever, so I wanted to be able to take him with me. However, it upset me terribly to think of his cremation. But, we are glad to have his ashes, and our friend is carving us a special box for them (the flowered tin they're in now isn't appropriate for our noble guy). You want to hear weird -- I move the tin to different parts of the house so he can see out different windows, and I put him in sunny spots where he used to lay, also. I guess we all have different ways of coping (or not coping!) with grief.
Take care, and know that others share your grief. Your story is sad for me, too.