again...not sure how this will go, but I am here. I am fine, a bit raw still, but not as often as before. But, for that reason I won't be modd'ing, I get prickly, then I get squishy and the most inopportune times it seems, emotional healing still to be done. Kids are moving along nicely with that, this was traumatic for all in my household and even a bit beyond.
First off...well duh not first...that up there was first...but now, let me say how incredibly humbled and touched I am at the outpouring of support in N & S's thread in Rainbow Bridge. I was not alone in this loss, tho it felt like that at times when it was fresher. But I know now, that I am not alone.
I feel, better. The lots behind my home were mowed today, matter of fact, and how cleansing and at peace I feel about that. It truly was...the very least I felt I could do for my girls and my neighborhood really. Susie's remains are home and I choose to think of them BOTH when I see that wee cedar box on my mantle 
Losses do not get easier just because there are more of them...but I am healing up...I laugh and joke..and in many ways I am, myself. I am glad to be back here, I think. I am looking forward to seeing the things I have missed...and participating in things from time to time.
Ellie, yes Ellie...many of you FB crowd know, but she is due to whelp, in mere days. While I anticipate it, it also is another possible time for sadness, me being morose, yes. Things happen...I hope I am ready. I hope things go well. I visualize things, going well. But again...here I am, and well...*smile* *wave*
