Xeph
Posted : 6/8/2007 1:33:04 PM
I hope you can sleep at night doing what you do. I couldn't.....Have you ever thought, as your holding the dog or cat down to be executed, that it could be your own dog could be the one about to die like that?
I don't work there anymore. I volunteer for resuce. And I HAVE been the one holding MY pet as it went to sleep. Being an animal owner, nobody is exempt from doing that. Not truly. I know some people who can't bear to send their pets to the bridge, and they leave the room or the building while the animal is being euth'd.
I thought about doing that with my own cat I just put down, but I couldn't say goodbye that way, so I stayed and rubbed behind her ears (her favorite spot) as she went to sleep.
I am not a "hardened" person. I've always been this way...it's just how I am. I'm very open with my dogs and my cats, just not with people (not in person). And I have to tell you, you don't make a living off $7.25 an hour. You do it because you love animals and the joy it brings people for the ones that get out.
Just because I'm not a person who collapses in hysterics and cries "FOUL! FOUL!" everytime an animal is euthanized, it doesn't mean that I don't care about those animals, and it doesn't mean that I'm a souless person (as it would seem you'd like to believe). It just means I don't wear my heart on my sleeve for those animals.
Sure I mourn their deaths...but I've mourned the deaths of many, and you just learn to move on ahead and help the next ones that come in, because we all know there will be "next ones". Falling apart or screaming "NO FAIR!!" everytime an animal is euthanized is a good way to get yourself to crack and end up in the loony bin with a heart (and psyche) that nobody can repair because you've allowed all the trauma of it to get to you.
The way I look at it, I'm a soldier in a battlefield. I lost some of my troops to death, but there are still other troops out there that need my aid. I can mourn the dead later. They're gone. Nothing I can do. It's the living that need to be my concern. Doesn't mean you stop caring. It just means you know how to move on.
People like you (DogAdvocat, Bobsk8, amylu) don't get people like me, because you base everything off of emotion. I base things off facts, off hard evidence. Emotion clouds people's judgement and limits their ability to be reasonable. I don't need that. I separate emotion from science/evidence as much as possible, because it makes things more clear cut and logical for me (and I'm not all that logical when it comes down to it, so I need a clear train of thought). Nothing wrong with emotion at the right time, but the right time is not in the middle of the work day after you've just euthanized 12 animals and still have 5 hours left on your shift.
If you're going to mourn, do it after hours when you're off the clock and at home, where it won't inhibit your performance at work and helping others.