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Posted : 12/5/2007 5:30:17 PM
I've thought about gastric bypass/banding, but I have just never been able to make a decision on it.
I was a skinny, active kid until I was about 8. Then, one summer, I just ballooned. I went from being one of the most popular kids with tons of friends to a social outcast because suddenly I was fat. No one really knew what happened. My family on my mom's side was really active and healthy, but people on my dad's side tended to be overweight, and my great grandmother was a MASSIVE woman. Apparently I got her genes. I've been fat since.
As a teenager, I really didn't exercise and I ate a lot- one of those emotional eating/vicious cycle things- I got picked on for being fat, I got depressed and ate, making me fatter. Now, at age 20, I am 5'5" and weigh almost 300 pounds. Pics of how big I am are on my Myspace (www.myspace.com/alexandri) and unless something major happens, I'm just going to get bigger. I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and am borderline diabetic. Diabetes, strokes, cancer, and high blood pressure run in my family. If I don't lose weight, I'm going to be dead by the time I'm 50. I fully understand how big the problem is.
I AM very active and I'm REALLY strong- I run our small farm entirely by myself and that involves hauling buckets of water, bales of hay, 100 pound bags of grain, wrestling large animals, hauling other heavy things, etc- EVERY day, and I have no one to help me. I don't sit around like a big fat lump and eat bon bons all day- if I don't go out and do it it doesn't get done. I thought for sure once I moved out here and started working my butt off I'd lose weight. It's been almost 6 months and I haven't lost a pound. I've gained some muscle and have way more stamina than I used to, but I'm the same size I've always been.
Diet is an issue for me- I know HOW to eat healthy, I really do- my mother pretty much cured her diabetes through diet and exercise and she taught me everything she knows about nutrition. My diet isn't the best, but I don't eat Big Macs and Baconators all day either. I don't feel like I eat an abnormal amount of food, but I must, or I wouldn't be this size.
I've been thinking about gastric banding especially for a few years now...but honestly I don't know how to bring it up with my doctor. I don't want to come across as this big lazy fat person who just wants an "easy way out," and I've always been afraid that the doctor would just immediately dismiss me and just tell me to exercise more and stop eating crap food. I need to do those things, for sure, and I understand that gastric bypass means a lifestyle change- but again, I'm just not sure how to bring it up without my doctor immediately dismissing me. Do you have any suggestions on how to mention it without coming across as someone who is just too lazy to exercise?
Also, does it really mean that you can only eat a tablespoon or two of food at a time? In your experience, how do patients cope with that? I used to think it wasn't worth it if you could hardly eat for the rest of your life, but now I'm realizing that the alternative is being fat forever- which is absolutely my vision of hell. If you've never been overweight, you can't possibly imagine how much of a non-person you become to other people...especially if you're a woman. It would be nice to live as a normal person, for once in my life. You can't imagine how much being this overweight takes your life away.